My Dearest Michelle

Despite everything that has happened, I still miss you every moment of every day.  I know you don't want to hear how much I love you, but I am hoping you will read this anyway.
I spend most of my day thinking about you and Savannah, playing memories through my mind of all the things, large and small, that made me happy with you two in my life, such as the feeling I had when I finally stepped through the door at the end of the day, my hello hug and having my daughter run to me.  I often play through all our sessions together when we met, our time on webcam, the messages you sent to me on DA.  All of it.  I remember how happy you were that day, and all I've ever wanted is to be able to make you that happy every day.  You touched my heart in a way no human being ever has.  My children do that too, but it's different.  I actually felt complete with you, which is why I would get so frustrated when you pulled away from me.  How many men would have done what I have done to keep you?  I hope you understand that I did these things because your presence in my life, as my wife, was more than worth it.  Your husband has always regarded meeting you as a cosmic-level event, the kind that most people could never understand or appreciate.  I know there may have been times where it didn't look that way, times where I said things that hurt you, but I always felt that way.  I learned my lesson back then, and the only thing I really had to say that was negative the last few years were all about the cheating.  Think about how much it hurt me, a man who looked at you as being almost mystical, a man who had done so much to show how much he loved you.  I think you hold those older things against me unjustly, considering how many times I forgave you, tried to build a life with you.  I wish you would let them go, and concentrate instead on all the good times and moments we shared.  I loved so many little details about you, and although I cherish all those memories, there are not enough.  I would love to share those little things together once more.
I loved our little life. It felt nice to rub your back while we watched videos, looked forward to my time with you both every day.  I worked hard to maintain a home, tried my best to do whatever I could to make you happy.  Your smile was my inspiration and lifted my spirit, and I have always been proud of you, regardless of what you may think.
Remember when we took Savannah to the beach, and she ran around naked all day?  It was a wonderful day, and I felt so at peace.  I loved looking at you, on the beach, while you slept, or at other random times.  You are my Muse, and you always will be.  Regardless of anything negative, you also made me feel better,  more alive, more in love, than anything I've ever experienced, or ever could.
You are everything I've ever looked for, and you gave us a beautiful daughter. I think it would be a shame for her to grow up without both of us in her daily life.  I may not be perfect, but I am truly in love with you, and promised never to give up on you.
I still haven't.  I never will.
My heart will always be yours.

I am forever,
Your Michael