Here is a poem/song that I wrote to help deal with the effects of narcissistic abuse.  The Muse insisted I share.

Never Be the Same

I sit helpless as more of me dies
A little more each day because of her lies
How long until there is nothing left?
I am but a victim, a wanton act of theft
Nothing but a pawn in her twisted game
I've passed beyond hope and will never be the same

Never be the same
No, I'll never be the same
Trapped here in the dark
With things that have no name

I sit here staring as my eyes fill with tears
All those many scars, all those wasted years
Once upon a time, I thought you might be the one,
Then you tore into me, nothing left when you were done
Now I never even want to hear your name
I have passed beyond reason and will never be the same

Never be the same
No, I'll never be the same
Trapped here in the dark
With things that have no name

Never be the same,
No, I'll never be the same
You tore my heart apart
You're the only one to blame

How many times did I fall victim to your schemes?
How many times did I sacrifice my dreams?
You left me bleeding and my heart is full of pain
I have passed beyond sadness and will never be the same

Never be the same
No, I'll never be the same
Trapped here in the dark
Any you're the one to blame

I'll never be the same
No, I'll never be the same
Oh, no no no
Never be the same


There are some wounds that are difficult to heal.  When I wrote this, I realized there were some things that could never be right again.  Healing changes us, and sometimes, the scars are deep.

~Namaste