(476,1,'2021-01-12 02:39:20','2021-01-12 06:39:20','Greetings,\r\n\r\nI recently have been doing more stuff on social media again, as I try to follow any marketing path for my writing that does not involve expenditures I cannot currently afford.  i know I should stick to advertising and marketing related posts, but there are some subjects, such as narcissistic and domestic abuse, that can stir me to make a comment.  Because of my own history of being a victim of both, I will occasionally comment on the gender-bias and stigmas males face in this area.  I advise them to run, do not walk, to the nearest exit and take any and all legal steps to protect themselves.\r\n\r\nl should know better, but...\r\n\r\nSo, naturally, whenever I make these sorts of comments, it is inevitable that some feminazi will call me an \'incel\'.  This is a revealing insult, and says much about those making it:\r\n<ol>\r\n 	<li> It says the person making the insult is offended by the notion any man can choose not to be swayed by feminine wiles.  Is that all this person has to offer?</li>\r\n 	<li> It reveals the person does not actually believe in equality, which is always the crux of my comments, but believes in superiority.</li>\r\n 	<li>It implies that anyone suggesting men stay single in a gender-biased society is involuntarily celibate, by definition, as if they are weak or somehow inferior in the eyes of women, or have nothing to offer, which is sexist as all hell, and could not be further from the truth.</li>\r\n 	<li>It states the person is fine with double standards and inequality, as long as they can bitch about it.</li>\r\n 	<li>They show their own gender-bias in terms of domestic and narcissistic abuse; it\'s okay for women to abuse men, but any man that abuses a woman is a monster.  This staggers my mind, actually.  Abuse is abuse, and equally evil regardless of gender.</li>\r\n</ol>\r\nAnd those are just the first few things to spring to mind.  It would seem to me that maybe these people may have lost a few relationships because they were emasculating bitches.  Just sayin\'.\r\n\r\nYes, I am now a hermit.  After suffering a decade of emotional and other abuse, I chose to take myself out of the game. There\'s nothing involuntary about it, and it\'s not an easy choice for me, as anyone who knows me (and knows my libido) can attest.  I actually love women...a lot.  There are more than one I\'ve pined for, and still do, but when your life has been devastated as mine has, the priority is repairing the damage, and making sure it never happens again.  For me, the choice was clear, if not welcome.  On the upside, however, such comments show me that I made the right choice.\r\n\r\nJust another rant.  Thanks for reading.\r\n\r\nUntil next time...\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Revealing Insults','','inherit','closed','closed','','475-revision-v1','','','2021-01-12 02:39:20','2021-01-12 06:39:20','',475,'http://michaelvain.net/475-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(478,1,'2021-02-15 03:10:49','2021-02-15 07:10:49','The following is a writing excerpt from the first draft of my upcoming non-fiction work, much of which consists of private journal entries going back to the origins of my last relationship to the current day.\r\n\r\nValentine’s Day.  Those that know me well, know I used to be the romantic type.  I enjoyed surprising both my significant other and my daughters with reminders of how much they mean to my life, buying them gifts and taking them on adventures.  These days, however, this day only serves as a reminder of how much I have lost, of how willing my ex-wife was to tear apart our family and bring false allegations against me in order to steal away my little one.  As much as I do not want to think about it, my mind keeps turning to fact she is likely having a romantic weekend with the ghetto trash for which she went to the effort of causing so much pain to others. The injustice of this cannot be escaped, no matter how much I attempt to distract myself.  Worse, it comes with the knowledge I will never again know the pleasure of an intimate embrace, never feel my arms around a woman as I pass into sleep, will never have that empty room in my heart filled.  The realization of how much my life has been changed by the abuse I suffered, of how much it has changed me as a person, are not pleasant thoughts, and haunt me every day of my life, this day in particular.\r\n\r\nValentine’s Day will never be the same for me again.  Then again, nothing has been the same ever since I discovered the true extent of Michelle’s cheating, the depth of her evil intentions, and the lengths she would go to lie. Had I not been through some of the previous traumas I have experienced, I would be able to heal faster from the physical damage I experienced, but that, combined with the effects of the abuse on my immune system and general health, has all but destroyed my body’s natural healing ability, as well as my immune system.\r\n\r\nThis is bad, but nothing compares to the emotional wounds, which are fresh today as the day they were inflicted.  I have doubt I will live long enough to heal from those cuts to my emotional self, for they take longer to recover from than mere physical damage, as any victim can attest.  The combination of both – with a world pandemic thrown in the mix – has made even the simplest aspects of my life more difficult\r\n\r\nI don’t say these things out of self-pity; it is merely an expression of truth, of how I feel, and the events which inspired them.  This negative emotional connection is now associated with so many days of the year, including all the holidays, but the fourteenth day of the month is especially hard.  November 14<sup>th</sup> is my former wedding anniversary, April 14<sup>th</sup> my ex-wife’s birthday, and then there is today.  Even after more than three years, the wounds are as fresh now as they were then.\r\n\r\nDon’t get me wrong; I don’t disparage others who are capable of enjoying this holiday, but for me, it appears it will forever be a reminder of everything that has happened and continues to happen to me as a result of abuse.  I no longer believe a normal relationship is possible in my life, and even if it is, it is not worth the risk of encountering another narcissist in my life.  This is the extent to which such toxic relationships can affect the victim, and I will always encourage anyone involved in one to get out while they can, lest they suffer possibly life-changing – or even life-ending – consequences.','Writing Excerpt - Valentine\'s Day','','publish','open','open','','writing-excerpt-valentines-day','','','2021-02-15 03:10:49','2021-02-15 07:10:49','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=478',0,'post','',0),(479,1,'2021-02-15 03:10:49','2021-02-15 07:10:49','The following is a writing excerpt from the first draft of my upcoming non-fiction work, much of which consists of private journal entries going back to the origins of my last relationship to the current day.\r\n\r\nValentine’s Day.  Those that know me well, know I used to be the romantic type.  I enjoyed surprising both my significant other and my daughters with reminders of how much they mean to my life, buying them gifts and taking them on adventures.  These days, however, this day only serves as a reminder of how much I have lost, of how willing my ex-wife was to tear apart our family and bring false allegations against me in order to steal away my little one.  As much as I do not want to think about it, my mind keeps turning to fact she is likely having a romantic weekend with the ghetto trash for which she went to the effort of causing so much pain to others. The injustice of this cannot be escaped, no matter how much I attempt to distract myself.  Worse, it comes with the knowledge I will never again know the pleasure of an intimate embrace, never feel my arms around a woman as I pass into sleep, will never have that empty room in my heart filled.  The realization of how much my life has been changed by the abuse I suffered, of how much it has changed me as a person, are not pleasant thoughts, and haunt me every day of my life, this day in particular.\r\n\r\nValentine’s Day will never be the same for me again.  Then again, nothing has been the same ever since I discovered the true extent of Michelle’s cheating, the depth of her evil intentions, and the lengths she would go to lie. Had I not been through some of the previous traumas I have experienced, I would be able to heal faster from the physical damage I experienced, but that, combined with the effects of the abuse on my immune system and general health, has all but destroyed my body’s natural healing ability, as well as my immune system.\r\n\r\nThis is bad, but nothing compares to the emotional wounds, which are fresh today as the day they were inflicted.  I have doubt I will live long enough to heal from those cuts to my emotional self, for they take longer to recover from than mere physical damage, as any victim can attest.  The combination of both – with a world pandemic thrown in the mix – has made even the simplest aspects of my life more difficult\r\n\r\nI don’t say these things out of self-pity; it is merely an expression of truth, of how I feel, and the events which inspired them.  This negative emotional connection is now associated with so many days of the year, including all the holidays, but the fourteenth day of the month is especially hard.  November 14<sup>th</sup> is my former wedding anniversary, April 14<sup>th</sup> my ex-wife’s birthday, and then there is today.  Even after more than three years, the wounds are as fresh now as they were then.\r\n\r\nDon’t get me wrong; I don’t disparage others who are capable of enjoying this holiday, but for me, it appears it will forever be a reminder of everything that has happened and continues to happen to me as a result of abuse.  I no longer believe a normal relationship is possible in my life, and even if it is, it is not worth the risk of encountering another narcissist in my life.  This is the extent to which such toxic relationships can affect the victim, and I will always encourage anyone involved in one to get out while they can, lest they suffer possibly life-changing – or even life-ending – consequences.','Writing Excerpt - Valentine\'s Day','','inherit','closed','closed','','478-revision-v1','','','2021-02-15 03:10:49','2021-02-15 07:10:49','',478,'http://michaelvain.net/478-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(480,1,'2021-02-22 00:57:01','2021-02-22 04:57:01','I was saddened to learn today of the passing of a local institution, almost a landmark in the Portsmouth and Chesapeake area, one that holds many pleasant memories for myself and my first two children, as well as many others.\r\n\r\nThis was my weekend to have my little one, and in the course of playing Saturday night, she set up some play bowling pins from when she was a toddler, and pretended her dolls were bowling.  I mentioned her older sister (my two older children do the same, and also refer to their mother’s children by her second marriage as sisters) was a duckpin bowling champion, and she voiced the desire to try the game herself, and I offered to take her to Victory Lanes.\r\n\r\nI checked online, and it appeared to be open today, although when I called, I received a recording saying the number was not valid.  Deciding to take a chance, we drove there, and although the van for children’s league was in the parking lot, the building was closed. Not wishing to disappoint my little girl, I took her to Funville indoor playground instead, where she was able to run and play.  She was happy to go, but stated she would really have liked to see if she was anywhere near as good as her older sister.\r\n\r\nMy first two children both participated in the chldren’s duckpin league at Victory Lanes throughout their stay in Virginia.  It was initially done as an activity – the sort of regular thing that all children can benefit from – and despite some initial reluctance, they both blossomed under the instruction of Mr. Askew, the children’s duckpin league coordinator.  Under his tutelage, the both became excellent players, along with many of their team mates (although my oldest daughter was unquestionably one of, if not the, best among them). Simply put, they became kick-ass duckpin bowlers.  There wasn’t enough room on their bowling shirts for more patches, no more room for their trophies.  They met many fascinating and fun people, got to compete in a friendly atmosphere in a skill-based sport.\r\n\r\nIn 2002, Mr. Askew passed away.  The league at Victory Lanes were determined to honor his memory, and set about bowling their way to the National Championship, becoming almost unstoppable, leading at least two teams and both my daughters to the final competition.  My oldest daughter led her team in many of the achievements, and the team dedicated their win to the memory of their teacher.\r\n\r\nI have only fond memories of the man, and the many lessons he imparted.  My first two were the age my little one is now when they first began bowling, and formed friendships that would last many years, ones that spanned race, gender, and even sexuality.  The only thing that mattered, was they were all part of the same team, and it was a lesson that was learned through the easy interaction and the bonds of team competition.\r\n\r\nSadly, duckpin bowling seems to be a dying sport in this country, and that is a shame.  It has so much to offer to children and adults, both socially in an entertainment value.  It is an indoor sport that does not involve hard impact on the body, and is just plain fun.  Whether a victim of the pandemic, or a move toward more home-based electronic entertainment, places like Victory Lanes are a dying breed, and that is a cause for regret.  For me, it came as a reminder of how quickly things change, and how precious our memories really are.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\'\r\n\r\nNamaste','The End of A Local Landmark','','publish','open','open','','the-end-of-a-local-landmark','','','2021-02-22 00:57:01','2021-02-22 04:57:01','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=480',0,'post','',0),(481,1,'2021-02-22 00:57:01','2021-02-22 04:57:01','I was saddened to learn today of the passing of a local institution, almost a landmark in the Portsmouth and Chesapeake area, one that holds many pleasant memories for myself and my first two children, as well as many others.\r\n\r\nThis was my weekend to have my little one, and in the course of playing Saturday night, she set up some play bowling pins from when she was a toddler, and pretended her dolls were bowling.  I mentioned her older sister (my two older children do the same, and also refer to their mother’s children by her second marriage as sisters) was a duckpin bowling champion, and she voiced the desire to try the game herself, and I offered to take her to Victory Lanes.\r\n\r\nI checked online, and it appeared to be open today, although when I called, I received a recording saying the number was not valid.  Deciding to take a chance, we drove there, and although the van for children’s league was in the parking lot, the building was closed. Not wishing to disappoint my little girl, I took her to Funville indoor playground instead, where she was able to run and play.  She was happy to go, but stated she would really have liked to see if she was anywhere near as good as her older sister.\r\n\r\nMy first two children both participated in the chldren’s duckpin league at Victory Lanes throughout their stay in Virginia.  It was initially done as an activity – the sort of regular thing that all children can benefit from – and despite some initial reluctance, they both blossomed under the instruction of Mr. Askew, the children’s duckpin league coordinator.  Under his tutelage, the both became excellent players, along with many of their team mates (although my oldest daughter was unquestionably one of, if not the, best among them). Simply put, they became kick-ass duckpin bowlers.  There wasn’t enough room on their bowling shirts for more patches, no more room for their trophies.  They met many fascinating and fun people, got to compete in a friendly atmosphere in a skill-based sport.\r\n\r\nIn 2002, Mr. Askew passed away.  The league at Victory Lanes were determined to honor his memory, and set about bowling their way to the National Championship, becoming almost unstoppable, leading at least two teams and both my daughters to the final competition.  My oldest daughter led her team in many of the achievements, and the team dedicated their win to the memory of their teacher.\r\n\r\nI have only fond memories of the man, and the many lessons he imparted.  My first two were the age my little one is now when they first began bowling, and formed friendships that would last many years, ones that spanned race, gender, and even sexuality.  The only thing that mattered, was they were all part of the same team, and it was a lesson that was learned through the easy interaction and the bonds of team competition.\r\n\r\nSadly, duckpin bowling seems to be a dying sport in this country, and that is a shame.  It has so much to offer to children and adults, both socially in an entertainment value.  It is an indoor sport that does not involve hard impact on the body, and is just plain fun.  Whether a victim of the pandemic, or a move toward more home-based electronic entertainment, places like Victory Lanes are a dying breed, and that is a cause for regret.  For me, it came as a reminder of how quickly things change, and how precious our memories really are.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\'\r\n\r\nNamaste','The End of A Local Landmark','','inherit','closed','closed','','480-revision-v1','','','2021-02-22 00:57:01','2021-02-22 04:57:01','',480,'http://michaelvain.net/480-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(482,1,'2021-02-22 01:20:17','2021-02-22 05:20:17','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n	<h1>Available Now</h1>\n<h1>Strange Stories, Twisted Tales</h1>\n\n<p>Ten Strange stories and twisted tales to make you wonder and keep you up at night.</p>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<h4>Available:<br />\nMay 26, 2020<br />\n<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0892B8BG4\">E-Book and Paperback</a><br />\nNow Available!</h4>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n	<h2>Coming 2021</h2>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<p>A new novel that combines elements of horror, the paranormal, and quantum physics.  The first draft is halfway completed, and I am looking to have the finished book ready sometime in the coming months, so stay tuned!</p>\n<h2>Coming 2021/2022</h2>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<p>A non-fiction account of a male victim of domestic abuse, and a court system unequipped and uncaring as to the dangers of narcissistic abuse.  Available late 2021, early 2022.</p>\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Future','','inherit','closed','closed','','224-revision-v1','','','2021-02-22 01:20:17','2021-02-22 05:20:17','',224,'http://michaelvain.net/224-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(484,1,'2021-02-26 00:30:56','2021-02-26 04:30:56','Greetings,\r\n\r\nMy new fiction WIP is nearing the halfway point on the first draft.  I am currently working on chapter 26 of 52 outlined, although this may be subject to change.  This novel will be something of a departure in some ways from the standard, but I really cannot say more without giving it away.  A few close friends are in the know, of course, because I\'m basically a hermit and it gives me something to talk about on those rare occasions where I take a break from my cloistered life, but I don\'t like spoilers, so I\'ll be keeping things under my hat for now.\r\n\r\nI do my best to write every day, although real life and physical limits do intervene from time to time.  I am hoping to have the first draft completed sometime around mid-May, although this too will change.  I\'ll post further updates in the future.\r\n\r\nUntil Next Time...\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Writing Update - 2-25-2021','','publish','open','open','','writing-update-2-25-2021','','','2021-02-26 00:30:56','2021-02-26 04:30:56','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=484',0,'post','',0),(485,1,'2021-02-26 00:30:56','2021-02-26 04:30:56','Greetings,\r\n\r\nMy new fiction WIP is nearing the halfway point on the first draft.  I am currently working on chapter 26 of 52 outlined, although this may be subject to change.  This novel will be something of a departure in some ways from the standard, but I really cannot say more without giving it away.  A few close friends are in the know, of course, because I\'m basically a hermit and it gives me something to talk about on those rare occasions where I take a break from my cloistered life, but I don\'t like spoilers, so I\'ll be keeping things under my hat for now.\r\n\r\nI do my best to write every day, although real life and physical limits do intervene from time to time.  I am hoping to have the first draft completed sometime around mid-May, although this too will change.  I\'ll post further updates in the future.\r\n\r\nUntil Next Time...\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Writing Update - 2-25-2021','','inherit','closed','closed','','484-revision-v1','','','2021-02-26 00:30:56','2021-02-26 04:30:56','',484,'http://michaelvain.net/484-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(487,1,'2021-03-24 14:34:46','2021-03-24 18:34:46','Greetings,\r\n\r\nMy apologies to those who purchased copies of my second book.  Apparently, the file I uploaded to the printer was corrupted, even though in review I did not detect any errors.  I do not know if I saved an old file over an edited version, or what, but somewhere along the way, the version that saw print was littered with corrupted text and other errors.  I managed to correct these over the last two weeks, and have resubmitted the manuscript.\r\n\r\nSo, if you purchased a copy, I owe you a new one.  Please feel free to contact me through my <a href=\"www.facebook.com/authormichaelvain\">Facebook page</a>, and I will send you a signed copy on me.  If you purchased the Kindle version, I will make sure you get an updated copy for free.  It\'s the lease I can do for those who support my work.  \r\nAgain, my apologies.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Misprints','','publish','open','open','','misprints','','','2021-03-24 14:34:46','2021-03-24 18:34:46','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=487',0,'post','',0),(488,1,'2021-03-24 14:34:46','2021-03-24 18:34:46','Greetings,\r\n\r\nMy apologies to those who purchased copies of my second book.  Apparently, the file I uploaded to the printer was corrupted, even though in review I did not detect any errors.  I do not know if I saved an old file over an edited version, or what, but somewhere along the way, the version that saw print was littered with corrupted text and other errors.  I managed to correct these over the last two weeks, and have resubmitted the manuscript.\r\n\r\nSo, if you purchased a copy, I owe you a new one.  Please feel free to contact me through my <a href=\"www.facebook.com/authormichaelvain\">Facebook page</a>, and I will send you a signed copy on me.  If you purchased the Kindle version, I will make sure you get an updated copy for free.  It\'s the lease I can do for those who support my work.  \r\nAgain, my apologies.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Misprints','','inherit','closed','closed','','487-revision-v1','','','2021-03-24 14:34:46','2021-03-24 18:34:46','',487,'http://michaelvain.net/487-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(490,1,'2021-04-07 01:01:56','2021-04-07 05:01:56','Why do I write horror?  I suppose every writer is asked at some point what inspired them to write about the things they do, and I found myself thinking about that tonight (connected to certain memories that have been playing unbidden of late).  I’ve answered that question before.  On the author page of this very site, I describe some of the events I and others witnessed in my childhood home, and how it changed my perception of the world, and how it made me think about the true nature of reality.  This was an inspiration, to be sure, but that is but one among many.  When I was younger, I wrote more comedy than I did anything else.   I can still be funny – in my own way – when I feel inspired in that direction.  I’ve written emotional pieces on the state of the human condition, technical papers, editorials, and just about everything in between.  Inspiration does not necessarily dictate a choice in genre.\r\nYes, growing up witnessing certain unexplained (or difficult to explain) phenomena and events had a dramatic effect on my view of the world, but there were other events just as impactful.  During that same period, my grandfather and his family had two contracts put out on their lives.  I could just as easily chosen spy thriller fiction or police/investigative fiction, or forensic detection.  Any genre I chose would be written with the same ability in terms of plot, description, and dialogue (whatever that level of ability may be).\r\nFor artists, all creation is an expression of their perceptions, and they are driven to express these perceptions, as opposed to someone who produces a product.  I’m not making any judgement on which is better; I am stating my observations of what defines an artist.\r\nSo again, why did I choose to write in the horror and strange fiction genre?  Inspiration is part of the equation, I suppose, but upon reflection, I know it is only a portion of the whole.  I think the real reason I write in this area is because I’ve witnessed a good deal of horror in my life, personally, in the lives of others, and in the systems that govern our lives.  In some ways, I see it still, every day.  Writing helps channel those experiences, to keep them from becoming a permanent resident within my inner being.  I think this applies to most true artists, and most definitely applies in my case.  In the second half of my life, I’ve suffered events that have left permanent effects, and that too adds a sense of impending mortality, which is one factor I believe is common in most who write in the horror genre.  The lasting effects of those events, physical, emotional, and social, is best lessened by creative endeavor, and when those effects are most severe, the more creative I am driven to become.\r\nSo there you have it; some personal reflections from yours truly.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~namaste\r\n','Why Horror?','','publish','open','open','','why-horror','','','2021-04-07 01:01:56','2021-04-07 05:01:56','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=490',0,'post','',0),(491,1,'2021-04-07 01:01:56','2021-04-07 05:01:56','Why do I write horror?  I suppose every writer is asked at some point what inspired them to write about the things they do, and I found myself thinking about that tonight (connected to certain memories that have been playing unbidden of late).  I’ve answered that question before.  On the author page of this very site, I describe some of the events I and others witnessed in my childhood home, and how it changed my perception of the world, and how it made me think about the true nature of reality.  This was an inspiration, to be sure, but that is but one among many.  When I was younger, I wrote more comedy than I did anything else.   I can still be funny – in my own way – when I feel inspired in that direction.  I’ve written emotional pieces on the state of the human condition, technical papers, editorials, and just about everything in between.  Inspiration does not necessarily dictate a choice in genre.\r\nYes, growing up witnessing certain unexplained (or difficult to explain) phenomena and events had a dramatic effect on my view of the world, but there were other events just as impactful.  During that same period, my grandfather and his family had two contracts put out on their lives.  I could just as easily chosen spy thriller fiction or police/investigative fiction, or forensic detection.  Any genre I chose would be written with the same ability in terms of plot, description, and dialogue (whatever that level of ability may be).\r\nFor artists, all creation is an expression of their perceptions, and they are driven to express these perceptions, as opposed to someone who produces a product.  I’m not making any judgement on which is better; I am stating my observations of what defines an artist.\r\nSo again, why did I choose to write in the horror and strange fiction genre?  Inspiration is part of the equation, I suppose, but upon reflection, I know it is only a portion of the whole.  I think the real reason I write in this area is because I’ve witnessed a good deal of horror in my life, personally, in the lives of others, and in the systems that govern our lives.  In some ways, I see it still, every day.  Writing helps channel those experiences, to keep them from becoming a permanent resident within my inner being.  I think this applies to most true artists, and most definitely applies in my case.  In the second half of my life, I’ve suffered events that have left permanent effects, and that too adds a sense of impending mortality, which is one factor I believe is common in most who write in the horror genre.  The lasting effects of those events, physical, emotional, and social, is best lessened by creative endeavor, and when those effects are most severe, the more creative I am driven to become.\r\nSo there you have it; some personal reflections from yours truly.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~namaste\r\n','Why Horror?','','inherit','closed','closed','','490-revision-v1','','','2021-04-07 01:01:56','2021-04-07 05:01:56','',490,'http://michaelvain.net/490-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(493,1,'2021-05-20 03:20:00','2021-05-20 07:20:00','In most horror movies, and in most novels in the genre, the treatment of the emotional effects of the events experienced by the main characters, including the protagonist, seem to be done in either one of two extremes: it is either ignored, or the character becomes a victim of the emotional/mental effects, going of the deep end to become the final victim or the next generation antagonist.  In movies, this is easy to explain; the events are condensed in order to tell a cohesive story in the running time of the film.  In many cases, the story takes place over a short period of time.  Psychological horror is the exception to this, of course, as the entire story is centered on that very aspect.  That being said, there are also exceptions to this, and those exceptions often prove to be excellent portrayals in their respective mediums.  I believe Horror is at its best when the emphasis is on the emotional aspects of the characters involved, especially when it comes to prose.\r\nIn my upcoming fiction work, the events take place over an extended period of time, which will have the quite natural effect of affecting the mental health of the protagonist.  As I suffer from the effects of depression and anxiety related to years of narcissistic abuse, I will be drawing from personal experience to describe the effects of these events on my MC in the terms of the symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress.  This is proving to be both the most challenging and rewarding aspect of this new novel, and I look forward to being able to have it ready for beta in the next few months.  I’ll be giving more details in upcoming posts.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste\r\n \r\n','Writing Update 5-20-2021','','publish','open','open','','writing-update-5-20-2021','','','2021-05-20 03:20:00','2021-05-20 07:20:00','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=493',0,'post','',0),(494,1,'2021-05-20 03:20:00','2021-05-20 07:20:00','In most horror movies, and in most novels in the genre, the treatment of the emotional effects of the events experienced by the main characters, including the protagonist, seem to be done in either one of two extremes: it is either ignored, or the character becomes a victim of the emotional/mental effects, going of the deep end to become the final victim or the next generation antagonist.  In movies, this is easy to explain; the events are condensed in order to tell a cohesive story in the running time of the film.  In many cases, the story takes place over a short period of time.  Psychological horror is the exception to this, of course, as the entire story is centered on that very aspect.  That being said, there are also exceptions to this, and those exceptions often prove to be excellent portrayals in their respective mediums.  I believe Horror is at its best when the emphasis is on the emotional aspects of the characters involved, especially when it comes to prose.\r\nIn my upcoming fiction work, the events take place over an extended period of time, which will have the quite natural effect of affecting the mental health of the protagonist.  As I suffer from the effects of depression and anxiety related to years of narcissistic abuse, I will be drawing from personal experience to describe the effects of these events on my MC in the terms of the symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress.  This is proving to be both the most challenging and rewarding aspect of this new novel, and I look forward to being able to have it ready for beta in the next few months.  I’ll be giving more details in upcoming posts.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste\r\n \r\n','Writing Update 5-20-2021','','inherit','closed','closed','','493-revision-v1','','','2021-05-20 03:20:00','2021-05-20 07:20:00','',493,'http://michaelvain.net/493-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(496,1,'2021-08-05 14:12:15','2021-08-05 18:12:15','Greetings,\r\n\r\nI can\'t believe it\'s already been 3 months since my last update.\r\nWait...\r\nYes I can.\r\nRepeated abuses, both by the travesty we have as a court system, and as either a direct or indirect result of actions by my cheating ex, has affected me all levels: physical, emotional, intellectual, and financial.  Time has become very strange, as I can no longer maintain a normal sleep pattern due to anxiety and depression (not without a shit-ton of meds, which I can\'t afford anyway), and the combined effects have made life difficult for me in a multitude of ways. I lose track of days, events, and thoughts now, when I never did before.  The difference is substantial, and time has become like a rubber band. 5 days can seem like 1 long work day.  Sometimes 1 day seems like 3.  I no longer pay my bills on time - haven\'t for months.  The only thing, and I mean this quite literally, that I get right is being on time for my visitation, and even that requires more energy than it should.\r\nEvery time I have tried to heal, the sources of the original pain and injuries reappear to fuck with my life again, and further exascerbate my injuries - namely, the joke that we call the legal system in this country. Don\'t be stupid enough to let anyone convince you that any part of our government is here to serve the people. I know you WANT to believe that...you are TOLD to believe that...and then those that comprise that entity reveal themselves to be greedy, narcissistic, pedophilic sociopaths - and we just go right along with our day and ignore it.\r\nSadly, I can\'t.\r\nI was raised to believe in certain things, and when I am forced to live in a corruption of that ideal, and that corruption affects my life on a very real level, it just cannot be ignored.  I have suffered PTSD since 2002 - the source? A Virginia State Trooper threatened my life when I politely asked for a copy of the witness list after suffering a forward ejection through the sunroof of an SUV that was flipping over at 40 mph. Had it not been for the EMT\'s that showed up at that moment, that narcissistic bully with a badge may have ended my life.  EVERY single encounter I have had with the system since then, has been of equal ridiculousness, been equally corrupt, been morally and ethically wrong, and an egregious misuse of the authority GIVEN to these people (the fact it is given seems to have been forgotten).\r\nI have been writing, however.  I write because it\'s the only outlet I have.  The state, in collusion with my ex, were complicit in assault, battery, perjury, kidnapping, defamation, misrepresentation, adultery, and extortion. This left me pretty much without the means to do much else, so I do the best I can with what I have.  It isn\'t easy, living every moment of every day in outrage and indignation, of seeing the principles I was raised on become as useless as wedding vows, of having double-digit IQ nimrods abuse you physically and emotionally - just because they have the immunity to do so.\r\nAnd we, as normal citizens, normally do not have the means to strike back. But I CAN write.\r\nAnd I will.\r\nMy non-fiction work may get me sued. I don\'t care. I\'ll have all the transcripts, texts, emails, and other evidence to back it up. I\'ve decided, you see, that if I cannot win against the shit-show that is our government, the least I can do is continue to tell the truth.  This will be sure to make some ass-fucks upset.  Too bad.  It\'s my life, and I\'ll tell the facts of it, one way or another.  If they didn\'t want their deeds exposed, don\'t do the shit to begin with - pretty simple, right?\r\nSo, every interaction I have is now recorded, names taken, details noted. I may not be able to avoid the damage caused by the incompetence, greed, and sheer sociopathy I encounter in our \'authority\' figures and institutions, but I can sure as fuck expose it.  Our lives are all private novels, and now mine will be an open book.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Update: 8-5-2021','','publish','open','open','','update-8-5-2021','','','2021-09-29 21:26:34','2021-09-30 01:26:34','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=496',0,'post','',0),(497,1,'2021-08-05 14:12:15','2021-08-05 18:12:15','Greetings,\r\n\r\nI can\'t believe it\'s already been 3 months since my last update.\r\nWait...\r\nYes I can.\r\nRepeated abuses, both by the travesty we have as a court system, and as either a direct or indirect result of actions by my cheating ex, has affected me all levels: physical, emotional, intellectual, and financial.  Time has become very strange, as I can no longer maintain a normal sleep pattern due to anxiety and depression (not without a shit-ton of meds, which I can\'t afford anyway), and the combined effects have made life difficult for me in a multitude of ways. I lose track of days, events, and thoughts now, when I never did before.  The difference is substantial, and time has become like a rubber band. 5 days can seem like 1 long work day.  Sometimes 1 day seems like 3.  I no longer pay my bills on time - haven\'t for months.  The only thing, and I mean this quite literally, that I get right is being on time for my visitation, and even that requires more energy than it should.\r\nEvery time I have tried to heal, the sources of the original pain and injuries reappear to fuck with my life again, and further exascerbate my injuries - namely, the joke that we call the legal system in this country. Don\'t be stupid enough to let anyone convince you that any part of our government is here to serve the people. I know you WANT to believe that...you are TOLD to believe that...and then those that comprise that entity reveal themselves to be greedy, narcissistic, pedophilic sociopaths - and we just go right along with our day and ignore it.\r\nSadly, I can\'t.\r\nI was raised to believe in certain things, and when I am forced to live in a corruption of that ideal, and that corruption affects my life on a very real level, it just cannot be ignored.  I have suffered PTSD since 2002 - the source? A Virginia State Trooper threatened my life when I politely asked for a copy of the witness list after suffering a forward ejection through the sunroof of an SUV that was flipping over at 40 mph. Had it not been for the EMT\'s that showed up at that moment, that narcissistic bully with a badge may have ended my life.  EVERY single encounter I have had with the system since then, has been of equal ridiculousness, been equally corrupt, been morally and ethically wrong, and an egregious misuse of the authority GIVEN to these people (the fact it is given seems to have been forgotten).\r\nI have been writing, however.  I write because it\'s the only outlet I have.  The state, in collusion with my ex, were complicit in assault, battery, perjury, kidnapping, defamation, misrepresentation, adultery, and extortion. This left me pretty much without the means to do much else, so I do the best I can with what I have.  It isn\'t easy, living every moment of every day in outrage and indignation, of seeing the principles I was raised on become as useless as wedding vows, of having double-digit IQ nimrods abuse you physically and emotionally - just because they have the immunity to do so.\r\nAnd we, as normal citizens, normally do not have the means to strike back. But I CAN write.\r\nAnd I will.\r\nMy non-fiction work may get me sued. I don\'t care. I\'ll have all the transcripts, texts, emails, and other evidence to back it up. I\'ve decided, you see, that if I cannot win against the shit-show that is our government, the lease I can do is continue to tell the truth.  This will be sure to make some ass-fucks upset.  Too bad.  It\'s my life, and I\'ll tell the facts of it, one way or another.  If they didn\'t want their deeds exposed, don\'t do the shit to begin with - pretty simple, right?\r\nSo, every interaction I have is now recorded, names taken, details noted. I may not be able to avoid the damage caused by the incompetance, greed, and sheer sociopathy I encounter in our \'authority\' figures and institutions, but I can sure as fuck expose it.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Update: 8-5-2021','','inherit','closed','closed','','496-revision-v1','','','2021-08-05 14:12:15','2021-08-05 18:12:15','',496,'http://michaelvain.net/496-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(499,1,'2021-08-14 23:10:54','2021-08-15 03:10:54','Greetings all!\r\n\r\nFor those of you just joining in, I\'ve been working on a new fiction novel for some time now, one I began a few years ago, back when I was unknowingly in a struggle against narcissistic abuse.  I wanted this novel to be my second work, but I several short stories and novellas were crying for my attention, and so that became \'Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\'.\r\nLater, when the smoke began to clear, I found the concept of the story - inspired by a number of interests and beliefs of mine cultivated through time - to be intriguing, and began work in earnest on my second novel length work.  As I picked up the pieces of the story and worked on establishing a general outline, the project grew a bit in scope.  I\'ve always been a bit long-winded, but I\'m comfortable with that, at least in first drafts, but as I worked on the details of the story, I realized I needed to deal with the effects of the events on the Main Character\'s mental health.  The story took on an entire new aspect with that realization, and it has proven to be the right decision, if preliminary reactions are to be believed, lol.\r\nNow, I\'ve come to that point where I basically have to pull whatever strings I\'ve laid out in the story together, and turn it into a plot that makes sense.  This means taking a critical look at what I have plotted so far, making sure those strings I wish to tie up will, at some point, be tied neatly.  Sometimes I have to condense or trim things.  This isn\'t an editing phase, not really - more of a course correction.  Once this is done, the remaining distance is always easier to travel, and the journey all the more rewarding.\r\nI\'m still looking to have this newest novel finished before the end of the year. As it gets closer to release, I\'ll have title and cover reveals, so stay tuned!\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n~Namaste\r\n  ','Update 8-14-2021','','publish','open','open','','update-8-14-2021','','','2021-08-14 23:10:54','2021-08-15 03:10:54','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=499',0,'post','',0),(500,1,'2021-08-14 23:10:54','2021-08-15 03:10:54','Greetings all!\r\n\r\nFor those of you just joining in, I\'ve been working on a new fiction novel for some time now, one I began a few years ago, back when I was unknowingly in a struggle against narcissistic abuse.  I wanted this novel to be my second work, but I several short stories and novellas were crying for my attention, and so that became \'Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\'.\r\nLater, when the smoke began to clear, I found the concept of the story - inspired by a number of interests and beliefs of mine cultivated through time - to be intriguing, and began work in earnest on my second novel length work.  As I picked up the pieces of the story and worked on establishing a general outline, the project grew a bit in scope.  I\'ve always been a bit long-winded, but I\'m comfortable with that, at least in first drafts, but as I worked on the details of the story, I realized I needed to deal with the effects of the events on the Main Character\'s mental health.  The story took on an entire new aspect with that realization, and it has proven to be the right decision, if preliminary reactions are to be believed, lol.\r\nNow, I\'ve come to that point where I basically have to pull whatever strings I\'ve laid out in the story together, and turn it into a plot that makes sense.  This means taking a critical look at what I have plotted so far, making sure those strings I wish to tie up will, at some point, be tied neatly.  Sometimes I have to condense or trim things.  This isn\'t an editing phase, not really - more of a course correction.  Once this is done, the remaining distance is always easier to travel, and the journey all the more rewarding.\r\nI\'m still looking to have this newest novel finished before the end of the year. As it gets closer to release, I\'ll have title and cover reveals, so stay tuned!\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n~Namaste\r\n  ','Update 8-14-2021','','inherit','closed','closed','','499-revision-v1','','','2021-08-14 23:10:54','2021-08-15 03:10:54','',499,'http://michaelvain.net/499-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(502,1,'2021-09-17 00:36:03','2021-09-17 04:36:03','As most who know me personally know, repeated attacks to my physical and mental health in the form of predatory and corrupt practices by law enforcement in Ohio, Virginia, and North Carolina  has caused me to suffer for many years from PTSD, depression, anxiety, neuropathy, and extreme chronic pain. I, like many, had dealt with the occasional false traffic ticket – fuel for the lawyers, one of the reason Shakespeare had such glowing words for them – and I went to court and faced them, always.  Those who know my upbringing (living with a polygraph and a P.S.E in my house, along with the most capable and adept examiner for both instruments on the planet) know I always make the truth my winning answer.  I was raised in a military/law enforcement/intelligence household.  I was taught to respect the truth and the intent of the law, if not the letter, as the unjust do not deserve respect.  In that way, I inherited the mores and ethics of my grandfather.  And those that know me, know how pissed I get when I see those institutions fuck over the common man for nothing more than greed or the narcissistic need for control.  I was raised to expect a higher standard, and when I see it used against people, including myself, who take time and effort to obey the law and believe in truth made out to be criminals and liars, all for the sake of a buck.\r\nThis may have been the reason why I was affected so deeply when I had my life threatened by a Virginia State Police Trooper when I asked if I could have a copy of the witness list after suffering a forward ejection through the sunroof of an SUV. I had suffered injuries that, had it not been for the timely intervention of the EMT’s, could have left me paralyzed had the Trooper been allowed to carry out his intent.  I became a hermit for seven years after this event, four of which were spent learning to walk without screaming.  I still cannot see flashing lights on the highway without suffering an extreme panic attack.  The mere sight of police cars can do the same, and having to deal with courtrooms in any capacity affects me for days before and after.\r\nLater, I moved to Ohio as a result of a relationship with my future ex-wife (another story entirely) and that move proved to be the start of a chain reaction of encounters that further traumatized me.  Three days after the birth of my third daughter, a TRAP syndrome birth that cost us her twin, I returned home from the hospital (an hour and half drive through freezing roads and black ice) to find I had taken the wrong bag home with me, and had to return my wife’s meds. So back I go, knowing I have to do another round trip in these conditions, when in Rising Sun, Ohio, I see a police car approaching from the opposite direction. Seeing an approaching change in the speed limit, I see the car turn around behind me, despite me doing the speed limit, and as I change my speed in time with the sign, I get pulled over. I get searched, and despite my being truthful about the meds, I get charged with possession, thrown into the back of a police car, re-injuring my back, and I get to listen as this ass and his buddy talk with glee about how many charges they can hit me with. In court, they dropped the charges when I told them every person who transports meds for terminal and/or handicapped people would like to know about my experience.  I was thrown in jail after I slipped a disc in my back while on a walk with my child for 37 days – 7 days beyond the limit of their ridiculous charge – because I was swearing at an umbrella stroller’s inability to traverse the crappy sidewalks of Fostoria, Ohio, and laid in jail passing in and out of consciousness for 3 days before I even got looked at by medical, and humiliated by double-digit IQ goons the entire time.\r\nFor cursing at a stroller.\r\nHaving enough of this shit, I moved to North Carolina. I wanted to eventually move us closer to the Outer Banks. There, I encountered pretty much the same treatment.\r\nOne day, while driving to the store about two week after moving, my toddler daughter started to choke in the back seat. We were stuck in slow moving traffic in a school zone, and there was not room for me to pull over in order to help her.  Her mother decided to unbuckle her seat belt in order to help her as I spotted two motorcycle cops in the median. I tell her to hurry, because we are going to be pulled over.  When asked if I’m speeding, I tell her no (I wasn’t), but we had an out of state license plate, and that was pretty much a free meal ticket to them. Sure enough, we are pulled over, and not allowed to tend to our choking daughter as the cop explains how easy it will be to pay the ticket. Not only that, this goon says I was doing 40 mph, which was mathematically impossible, as I would have to be doing a minimum of 14 feet/second more than any car around me.  At the hearing, the prosecutor laughed in my face when I said I would be pleading not guilty, had a cop who couldn’t remember what vehicle he was driving that day, had my daughter and now ex insulted in the court room, and was still found guilty.\r\nAnd this is typical of my experiences over the last almost 20 years.  Without fail.\r\nDriving at all became an exercise in anxiety.  I’m hyper-vigilant behind the wheel. I never speed. Have never driven intoxicated.  For that reason, I’m never in a hurry when I drive.  I always wear my seat belt, etc, etc.\r\nAnd it still isn’t enough, because you can get pulled over and accused of something you have taken the time and effort to do right, and one way or the other, you’re going to have money yanked out of you.\r\nCase in point:\r\nAfter my ex revealed the extent of her narcissistic abuse, I once again became a hermit, as those dealings with the system did nothing but exacerbate and heighten all my symptoms, both physical and psychological.  For several years, I would only drive when absolutely necessary, never driving more than 20 miles or so away from my home.\r\nThis changed in September, 2020.  I had met a friend online through a support group, and continued to chat with her online as she battled colon cancer.  She would be going into hospice, and I promised to visit her in person, as she had had few visitors in the recent weeks.  From my previous experiences, I knew it would be a risk, but all I could do was drive the speed limit, and hope for the best.\r\nAnd, wouldn’t you know it, despite all the above, I still get pulled over, and told I’m doing some ridiculous speed that I would never do on an unfamiliar curving country road. \r\nNot only that, but the courts decide to mail out the notice of the trial the day after it occurs, effectively denying me any chance to appear in court.\r\nAnd people wonder why I’m a hermit.\r\nNow you know.\r\n','Corruption and Mental Health','','publish','open','open','','corruption-and-mental-health','','','2021-09-17 00:36:03','2021-09-17 04:36:03','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=502',0,'post','',1),(503,1,'2021-09-17 00:36:03','2021-09-17 04:36:03','As most who know me personally know, repeated attacks to my physical and mental health in the form of predatory and corrupt practices by law enforcement in Ohio, Virginia, and North Carolina  has caused me to suffer for many years from PTSD, depression, anxiety, neuropathy, and extreme chronic pain. I, like many, had dealt with the occasional false traffic ticket – fuel for the lawyers, one of the reason Shakespeare had such glowing words for them – and I went to court and faced them, always.  Those who know my upbringing (living with a polygraph and a P.S.E in my house, along with the most capable and adept examiner for both instruments on the planet) know I always make the truth my winning answer.  I was raised in a military/law enforcement/intelligence household.  I was taught to respect the truth and the intent of the law, if not the letter, as the unjust do not deserve respect.  In that way, I inherited the mores and ethics of my grandfather.  And those that know me, know how pissed I get when I see those institutions fuck over the common man for nothing more than greed or the narcissistic need for control.  I was raised to expect a higher standard, and when I see it used against people, including myself, who take time and effort to obey the law and believe in truth made out to be criminals and liars, all for the sake of a buck.\r\nThis may have been the reason why I was affected so deeply when I had my life threatened by a Virginia State Police Trooper when I asked if I could have a copy of the witness list after suffering a forward ejection through the sunroof of an SUV. I had suffered injuries that, had it not been for the timely intervention of the EMT’s, could have left me paralyzed had the Trooper been allowed to carry out his intent.  I became a hermit for seven years after this event, four of which were spent learning to walk without screaming.  I still cannot see flashing lights on the highway without suffering an extreme panic attack.  The mere sight of police cars can do the same, and having to deal with courtrooms in any capacity affects me for days before and after.\r\nLater, I moved to Ohio as a result of a relationship with my future ex-wife (another story entirely) and that move proved to be the start of a chain reaction of encounters that further traumatized me.  Three days after the birth of my third daughter, a TRAP syndrome birth that cost us her twin, I returned home from the hospital (an hour and half drive through freezing roads and black ice) to find I had taken the wrong bag home with me, and had to return my wife’s meds. So back I go, knowing I have to do another round trip in these conditions, when in Rising Sun, Ohio, I see a police car approaching from the opposite direction. Seeing an approaching change in the speed limit, I see the car turn around behind me, despite me doing the speed limit, and as I change my speed in time with the sign, I get pulled over. I get searched, and despite my being truthful about the meds, I get charged with possession, thrown into the back of a police car, re-injuring my back, and I get to listen as this ass and his buddy talk with glee about how many charges they can hit me with. In court, they dropped the charges when I told them every person who transports meds for terminal and/or handicapped people would like to know about my experience.  I was thrown in jail after I slipped a disc in my back while on a walk with my child for 37 days – 7 days beyond the limit of their ridiculous charge – because I was swearing at an umbrella stroller’s inability to traverse the crappy sidewalks of Fostoria, Ohio, and laid in jail passing in and out of consciousness for 3 days before I even got looked at by medical, and humiliated by double-digit IQ goons the entire time.\r\nFor cursing at a stroller.\r\nHaving enough of this shit, I moved to North Carolina. I wanted to eventually move us closer to the Outer Banks. There, I encountered pretty much the same treatment.\r\nOne day, while driving to the store about two week after moving, my toddler daughter started to choke in the back seat. We were stuck in slow moving traffic in a school zone, and there was not room for me to pull over in order to help her.  Her mother decided to unbuckle her seat belt in order to help her as I spotted two motorcycle cops in the median. I tell her to hurry, because we are going to be pulled over.  When asked if I’m speeding, I tell her no (I wasn’t), but we had an out of state license plate, and that was pretty much a free meal ticket to them. Sure enough, we are pulled over, and not allowed to tend to our choking daughter as the cop explains how easy it will be to pay the ticket. Not only that, this goon says I was doing 40 mph, which was mathematically impossible, as I would have to be doing a minimum of 14 feet/second more than any car around me.  At the hearing, the prosecutor laughed in my face when I said I would be pleading not guilty, had a cop who couldn’t remember what vehicle he was driving that day, had my daughter and now ex insulted in the court room, and was still found guilty.\r\nAnd this is typical of my experiences over the last almost 20 years.  Without fail.\r\nDriving at all became an exercise in anxiety.  I’m hyper-vigilant behind the wheel. I never speed. Have never driven intoxicated.  For that reason, I’m never in a hurry when I drive.  I always wear my seat belt, etc, etc.\r\nAnd it still isn’t enough, because you can get pulled over and accused of something you have taken the time and effort to do right, and one way or the other, you’re going to have money yanked out of you.\r\nCase in point:\r\nAfter my ex revealed the extent of her narcissistic abuse, I once again became a hermit, as those dealings with the system did nothing but exacerbate and heighten all my symptoms, both physical and psychological.  For several years, I would only drive when absolutely necessary, never driving more than 20 miles or so away from my home.\r\nThis changed in September, 2020.  I had met a friend online through a support group, and continued to chat with her online as she battled colon cancer.  She would be going into hospice, and I promised to visit her in person, as she had had few visitors in the recent weeks.  From my previous experiences, I knew it would be a risk, but all I could do was drive the speed limit, and hope for the best.\r\nAnd, wouldn’t you know it, despite all the above, I still get pulled over, and told I’m doing some ridiculous speed that I would never do on an unfamiliar curving country road. \r\nNot only that, but the courts decide to mail out the notice of the trial the day after it occurs, effectively denying me any chance to appear in court.\r\nAnd people wonder why I’m a hermit.\r\nNow you know.\r\n','Corruption and Mental Health','','inherit','closed','closed','','502-revision-v1','','','2021-09-17 00:36:03','2021-09-17 04:36:03','',502,'http://michaelvain.net/502-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(504,1,'2021-09-24 00:48:31','2021-09-24 04:48:31','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n	<h1>Available Now</h1>\n<h1>Strange Stories, Twisted Tales</h1>\n\n<p>Ten Strange stories and twisted tales to make you wonder and keep you up at night.</p>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<h4>Available:<br />\nMay 26, 2020<br />\n<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0892B8BG4\">E-Book and Paperback</a><br />\nNow Available!</h4>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<h4>Hardback available soon!</h4>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n	<h2>Coming 2021</h2>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<p>A new novel that combines elements of horror, the paranormal, and quantum physics.  The first draft is halfway completed, and I am looking to have the finished book ready sometime in the coming months, so stay tuned!</p>\n<h2>Coming 2021/2022</h2>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<p>A non-fiction account of a male victim of domestic abuse, and a court system unequipped and uncaring as to the dangers of narcissistic abuse.  Available late 2021, early 2022.</p>\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Future','','inherit','closed','closed','','224-revision-v1','','','2021-09-24 00:48:31','2021-09-24 04:48:31','',224,'http://michaelvain.net/224-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(506,1,'2021-09-26 22:46:48','2021-09-27 02:46:48','I received word that my first wife, and mother of my first two children, passed away at approximately 1 a.m. this morning.  I have yet to process this, but it has affected me, and I believe it will for quite some time to come.  I do know that for me, it marks the end of yet another era, another chapter of my life.  Yet more of my past is now locked forever in history, and my world has become smaller with her passing.\r\nI met Gina when I was still in high school, and she was my girlfriend from my sophomore year onward.  We had our share of misadventures, as many of that age did at the time, and memories of those times come out of the dark now at odd hours to remind me of just how long I’ve been on this road.  We got married pretty much right out of school, for different reasons, I suppose, although both of us being young and stupid counted for a lot of what happened after.\r\nYes, things went wrong.  It was my relationship that blew my portfolio review for MICA, where I had pretty much been scheduled to receive a full scholarship, and this changed my life to an extreme degree.  There was a great deal of misery and strife, also because we were young and stupid, and I became a work horse, doing whatever I could to support my wife and children.  I hated most of these jobs, hated life a great deal of the time, to be honest, and although I grew to know our relationship was in trouble, I continued to hold onto hope until the very end.  Things were made worse by my grandmother, who did not hold my wife or her family in any regard, and made things harder for us because of it.\r\nThis was made even worse after we divorced, using whatever means she could to cause more tension between us, and still being young and stupid, I did nothing to make things easier.  It took another ten years for us to reconcile our past, and to begin treating each other civilly.  We had done what was necessary for the children in the meantime, but it was never friendly.  I resented my treatment, and it took years for me to understand how we had both been manipulated by our caregivers, and the truth behind what had happened to us.  It was then that I could finally forgive her for the things she had done, and let go of my anger.  In the end, we ended up creating two beautiful children together, and I came to understand that some things…are not about us; they are about greater things.\r\nYet, despite all the bad things that happened, all the things she may have done against me in our marriage, I know she never took pleasure in it. Anything we did, we did for reasons inspired by our youth and inexperience, for our own protection, or doing what we thought we needed to do.  Neither of us ever set out to set up the other, or deliberately cause them pain for our pleasure or benefit.  In short, my first wife had some flaws, as do we all, but she was not a narcissistic monster like the one that nearly killed me several years ago.  She did not deserve the cancer that ravaged her for four years, did not deserve the pain and fear it brings, nor did her children or husband, all of whom are decent people who do their best to make their way in the world without hurting others.  Gina never had what could be called an easy life, and I think she deserved much more happiness than what she received.  I can only hope that now, after fighting a battle against that dark and insidious opponent, that she will finally know happiness and peace.\r\nFarewell and Godspeed, Gina.  Rest now, and take joy in knowing your children, all of them, love you and will miss you.\r\nAs will I.\r\n','A Sad Loss','','publish','open','open','','a-sad-loss','','','2021-09-26 22:46:48','2021-09-27 02:46:48','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=506',0,'post','',0),(507,1,'2021-09-26 22:46:48','2021-09-27 02:46:48','I received word that my first wife, and mother of my first two children, passed away at approximately 1 a.m. this morning.  I have yet to process this, but it has affected me, and I believe it will for quite some time to come.  I do know that for me, it marks the end of yet another era, another chapter of my life.  Yet more of my past is now locked forever in history, and my world has become smaller with her passing.\r\nI met Gina when I was still in high school, and she was my girlfriend from my sophomore year onward.  We had our share of misadventures, as many of that age did at the time, and memories of those times come out of the dark now at odd hours to remind me of just how long I’ve been on this road.  We got married pretty much right out of school, for different reasons, I suppose, although both of us being young and stupid counted for a lot of what happened after.\r\nYes, things went wrong.  It was my relationship that blew my portfolio review for MICA, where I had pretty much been scheduled to receive a full scholarship, and this changed my life to an extreme degree.  There was a great deal of misery and strife, also because we were young and stupid, and I became a work horse, doing whatever I could to support my wife and children.  I hated most of these jobs, hated life a great deal of the time, to be honest, and although I grew to know our relationship was in trouble, I continued to hold onto hope until the very end.  Things were made worse by my grandmother, who did not hold my wife or her family in any regard, and made things harder for us because of it.\r\nThis was made even worse after we divorced, using whatever means she could to cause more tension between us, and still being young and stupid, I did nothing to make things easier.  It took another ten years for us to reconcile our past, and to begin treating each other civilly.  We had done what was necessary for the children in the meantime, but it was never friendly.  I resented my treatment, and it took years for me to understand how we had both been manipulated by our caregivers, and the truth behind what had happened to us.  It was then that I could finally forgive her for the things she had done, and let go of my anger.  In the end, we ended up creating two beautiful children together, and I came to understand that some things…are not about us; they are about greater things.\r\nYet, despite all the bad things that happened, all the things she may have done against me in our marriage, I know she never took pleasure in it. Anything we did, we did for reasons inspired by our youth and inexperience, for our own protection, or doing what we thought we needed to do.  Neither of us ever set out to set up the other, or deliberately cause them pain for our pleasure or benefit.  In short, my first wife had some flaws, as do we all, but she was not a narcissistic monster like the one that nearly killed me several years ago.  She did not deserve the cancer that ravaged her for four years, did not deserve the pain and fear it brings, nor did her children or husband, all of whom are decent people who do their best to make their way in the world without hurting others.  Gina never had what could be called an easy life, and I think she deserved much more happiness than what she received.  I can only hope that now, after fighting a battle against that dark and insidious opponent, that she will finally know happiness and peace.\r\nFarewell and Godspeed, Gina.  Rest now, and take joy in knowing your children, all of them, love you and will miss you.\r\nAs will I.\r\n','A Sad Loss','','inherit','closed','closed','','506-revision-v1','','','2021-09-26 22:46:48','2021-09-27 02:46:48','',506,'http://michaelvain.net/506-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(508,1,'2021-09-29 21:25:22','2021-09-30 01:25:22','Greetings,\r\n\r\nI can\'t believe it\'s already been 3 months since my last update.\r\nWait...\r\nYes I can.\r\nRepeated abuses, both by the travesty we have as a court system, and as either a direct or indirect result of actions by my cheating ex, has affected me all levels: physical, emotional, intellectual, and financial.  Time has become very strange, as I can no longer maintain a normal sleep pattern due to anxiety and depression (not without a shit-ton of meds, which I can\'t afford anyway), and the combined effects have made life difficult for me in a multitude of ways. I lose track of days, events, and thoughts now, when I never did before.  The difference is substantial, and time has become like a rubber band. 5 days can seem like 1 long work day.  Sometimes 1 day seems like 3.  I no longer pay my bills on time - haven\'t for months.  The only thing, and I mean this quite literally, that I get right is being on time for my visitation, and even that requires more energy than it should.\r\nEvery time I have tried to heal, the sources of the original pain and injuries reappear to fuck with my life again, and further exascerbate my injuries - namely, the joke that we call the legal system in this country. Don\'t be stupid enough to let anyone convince you that any part of our government is here to serve the people. I know you WANT to believe that...you are TOLD to believe that...and then those that comprise that entity reveal themselves to be greedy, narcissistic, pedophilic sociopaths - and we just go right along with our day and ignore it.\r\nSadly, I can\'t.\r\nI was raised to believe in certain things, and when I am forced to live in a corruption of that ideal, and that corruption affects my life on a very real level, it just cannot be ignored.  I have suffered PTSD since 2002 - the source? A Virginia State Trooper threatened my life when I politely asked for a copy of the witness list after suffering a forward ejection through the sunroof of an SUV that was flipping over at 40 mph. Had it not been for the EMT\'s that showed up at that moment, that narcissistic bully with a badge may have ended my life.  EVERY single encounter I have had with the system since then, has been of equal ridiculousness, been equally corrupt, been morally and ethically wrong, and an egregious misuse of the authority GIVEN to these people (the fact it is given seems to have been forgotten).\r\nI have been writing, however.  I write because it\'s the only outlet I have.  The state, in collusion with my ex, were complicit in assault, battery, perjury, kidnapping, defamation, misrepresentation, adultery, and extortion. This left me pretty much without the means to do much else, so I do the best I can with what I have.  It isn\'t easy, living every moment of every day in outrage and indignation, of seeing the principles I was raised on become as useless as wedding vows, of having double-digit IQ nimrods abuse you physically and emotionally - just because they have the immunity to do so.\r\nAnd we, as normal citizens, normally do not have the means to strike back. But I CAN write.\r\nAnd I will.\r\nMy non-fiction work may get me sued. I don\'t care. I\'ll have all the transcripts, texts, emails, and other evidence to back it up. I\'ve decided, you see, that if I cannot win against the shit-show that is our government, the least I can do is continue to tell the truth.  This will be sure to make some ass-fucks upset.  Too bad.  It\'s my life, and I\'ll tell the facts of it, one way or another.  If they didn\'t want their deeds exposed, don\'t do the shit to begin with - pretty simple, right?\r\nSo, every interaction I have is now recorded, names taken, details noted. I may not be able to avoid the damage caused by the incompetence, greed, and sheer sociopathy I encounter in our \'authority\' figures and institutions, but I can sure as fuck expose it.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Update: 8-5-2021','','inherit','closed','closed','','496-revision-v1','','','2021-09-29 21:25:22','2021-09-30 01:25:22','',496,'http://michaelvain.net/496-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(509,1,'2021-09-29 21:26:26','2021-09-30 01:26:26','Greetings,\n\nI can\'t believe it\'s already been 3 months since my last update.\nWait...\nYes I can.\nRepeated abuses, both by the travesty we have as a court system, and as either a direct or indirect result of actions by my cheating ex, has affected me all levels: physical, emotional, intellectual, and financial.  Time has become very strange, as I can no longer maintain a normal sleep pattern due to anxiety and depression (not without a shit-ton of meds, which I can\'t afford anyway), and the combined effects have made life difficult for me in a multitude of ways. I lose track of days, events, and thoughts now, when I never did before.  The difference is substantial, and time has become like a rubber band. 5 days can seem like 1 long work day.  Sometimes 1 day seems like 3.  I no longer pay my bills on time - haven\'t for months.  The only thing, and I mean this quite literally, that I get right is being on time for my visitation, and even that requires more energy than it should.\nEvery time I have tried to heal, the sources of the original pain and injuries reappear to fuck with my life again, and further exascerbate my injuries - namely, the joke that we call the legal system in this country. Don\'t be stupid enough to let anyone convince you that any part of our government is here to serve the people. I know you WANT to believe that...you are TOLD to believe that...and then those that comprise that entity reveal themselves to be greedy, narcissistic, pedophilic sociopaths - and we just go right along with our day and ignore it.\nSadly, I can\'t.\nI was raised to believe in certain things, and when I am forced to live in a corruption of that ideal, and that corruption affects my life on a very real level, it just cannot be ignored.  I have suffered PTSD since 2002 - the source? A Virginia State Trooper threatened my life when I politely asked for a copy of the witness list after suffering a forward ejection through the sunroof of an SUV that was flipping over at 40 mph. Had it not been for the EMT\'s that showed up at that moment, that narcissistic bully with a badge may have ended my life.  EVERY single encounter I have had with the system since then, has been of equal ridiculousness, been equally corrupt, been morally and ethically wrong, and an egregious misuse of the authority GIVEN to these people (the fact it is given seems to have been forgotten).\nI have been writing, however.  I write because it\'s the only outlet I have.  The state, in collusion with my ex, were complicit in assault, battery, perjury, kidnapping, defamation, misrepresentation, adultery, and extortion. This left me pretty much without the means to do much else, so I do the best I can with what I have.  It isn\'t easy, living every moment of every day in outrage and indignation, of seeing the principles I was raised on become as useless as wedding vows, of having double-digit IQ nimrods abuse you physically and emotionally - just because they have the immunity to do so.\nAnd we, as normal citizens, normally do not have the means to strike back. But I CAN write.\nAnd I will.\nMy non-fiction work may get me sued. I don\'t care. I\'ll have all the transcripts, texts, emails, and other evidence to back it up. I\'ve decided, you see, that if I cannot win against the shit-show that is our government, the least I can do is continue to tell the truth.  This will be sure to make some ass-fucks upset.  Too bad.  It\'s my life, and I\'ll tell the facts of it, one way or another.  If they didn\'t want their deeds exposed, don\'t do the shit to begin with - pretty simple, right?\nSo, every interaction I have is now recorded, names taken, details noted. I may not be able to avoid the damage caused by the incompetence, greed, and sheer sociopathy I encounter in our \'authority\' figures and institutions, but I can sure as fuck expose it.  Our lives are all private novels, and now mine will be an open book\n\nUntil next time,\n\n~Namaste','Update: 8-5-2021','','inherit','closed','closed','','496-autosave-v1','','','2021-09-29 21:26:26','2021-09-30 01:26:26','',496,'http://michaelvain.net/496-autosave-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(510,1,'2021-09-29 21:26:34','2021-09-30 01:26:34','Greetings,\r\n\r\nI can\'t believe it\'s already been 3 months since my last update.\r\nWait...\r\nYes I can.\r\nRepeated abuses, both by the travesty we have as a court system, and as either a direct or indirect result of actions by my cheating ex, has affected me all levels: physical, emotional, intellectual, and financial.  Time has become very strange, as I can no longer maintain a normal sleep pattern due to anxiety and depression (not without a shit-ton of meds, which I can\'t afford anyway), and the combined effects have made life difficult for me in a multitude of ways. I lose track of days, events, and thoughts now, when I never did before.  The difference is substantial, and time has become like a rubber band. 5 days can seem like 1 long work day.  Sometimes 1 day seems like 3.  I no longer pay my bills on time - haven\'t for months.  The only thing, and I mean this quite literally, that I get right is being on time for my visitation, and even that requires more energy than it should.\r\nEvery time I have tried to heal, the sources of the original pain and injuries reappear to fuck with my life again, and further exascerbate my injuries - namely, the joke that we call the legal system in this country. Don\'t be stupid enough to let anyone convince you that any part of our government is here to serve the people. I know you WANT to believe that...you are TOLD to believe that...and then those that comprise that entity reveal themselves to be greedy, narcissistic, pedophilic sociopaths - and we just go right along with our day and ignore it.\r\nSadly, I can\'t.\r\nI was raised to believe in certain things, and when I am forced to live in a corruption of that ideal, and that corruption affects my life on a very real level, it just cannot be ignored.  I have suffered PTSD since 2002 - the source? A Virginia State Trooper threatened my life when I politely asked for a copy of the witness list after suffering a forward ejection through the sunroof of an SUV that was flipping over at 40 mph. Had it not been for the EMT\'s that showed up at that moment, that narcissistic bully with a badge may have ended my life.  EVERY single encounter I have had with the system since then, has been of equal ridiculousness, been equally corrupt, been morally and ethically wrong, and an egregious misuse of the authority GIVEN to these people (the fact it is given seems to have been forgotten).\r\nI have been writing, however.  I write because it\'s the only outlet I have.  The state, in collusion with my ex, were complicit in assault, battery, perjury, kidnapping, defamation, misrepresentation, adultery, and extortion. This left me pretty much without the means to do much else, so I do the best I can with what I have.  It isn\'t easy, living every moment of every day in outrage and indignation, of seeing the principles I was raised on become as useless as wedding vows, of having double-digit IQ nimrods abuse you physically and emotionally - just because they have the immunity to do so.\r\nAnd we, as normal citizens, normally do not have the means to strike back. But I CAN write.\r\nAnd I will.\r\nMy non-fiction work may get me sued. I don\'t care. I\'ll have all the transcripts, texts, emails, and other evidence to back it up. I\'ve decided, you see, that if I cannot win against the shit-show that is our government, the least I can do is continue to tell the truth.  This will be sure to make some ass-fucks upset.  Too bad.  It\'s my life, and I\'ll tell the facts of it, one way or another.  If they didn\'t want their deeds exposed, don\'t do the shit to begin with - pretty simple, right?\r\nSo, every interaction I have is now recorded, names taken, details noted. I may not be able to avoid the damage caused by the incompetence, greed, and sheer sociopathy I encounter in our \'authority\' figures and institutions, but I can sure as fuck expose it.  Our lives are all private novels, and now mine will be an open book.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Update: 8-5-2021','','inherit','closed','closed','','496-revision-v1','','','2021-09-29 21:26:34','2021-09-30 01:26:34','',496,'http://michaelvain.net/496-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(513,1,'2021-12-04 13:52:09','2021-12-04 17:52:09','Hello All,\r\n\r\nI say \'all\' like more than a handful of people ever see this page, at least to my knowledge.  The stats are a bit misleading in that area, and I\'d have to do more digging than I care to in order to find just how many actual readers I have.  But no matter; if you are a fan or follower, I appreciate every page visit.\r\nBoth might see that I do not update my blog on a daily or even weekly basis.  Weeks and months can sometimes pass before I can write an update or post, which I am certain contributes to my relative obscurity in the writing world.\r\nThe reason for this is simple: life.\r\nThe life of a writer can be far from what those not involved in that particular obsession imagine.  Even the King\'s and Martin\'s and Rowling\'s of the world lived relatively hard lives before finally breaking onto the world stage, and for every successful author, there are a multitude that give up along the way, or are consumed by the pressures of life while trying.  The \'starving artist\' moniker is equally fitting to authors as they are to the painters and musicians who struggle to exist while also doing what they can to express their creative drive.  It is not an easy path, and but a few ever make it past all the exhaustion, pain, and stress required to rise above the sea of mediocrity we are forced to consume on a daily basis.  The struggle is long, fought with anxiety and worry, and so often unrewarding.  This has made me wonder why we haven\'t seen any reality shows centering around life of a writer; the drama alone would make good viewing,\r\nIn my case, this has been the story for most of my life.  As the years go by, the crises grow larger, the hours longer, the effort greater, while the rewards have lessened to become nigh non-existent.  Despite having a multitude of skills, an IQ over 140, a strong work-ethic, and years of experience in several fields, the damage done both physically and emotionally by the decade of abuse at the hands of a narcissistic sociopath, and more than two decades of abuse by our tragically ridiculous excuse for a justice system, has made it almost impossible to keep my head above water financially, and even when I manage to do so, the toll upon me can be severe, perfect fodder for reality television.  A camera crew could follow my attempts to find new gigs, as I work a second job managing the complex where I live, and all the other struggles an aspiring author faces while trying to produce what they hope will be the next bestseller, perfect fodder for all who are fascinated by the misery and drama in others lives.  I\'m not sure what kind of products could be sold in advertisements during such a program, but that\'s for the marketing gremlins to figure out.  I\'ve even considered starting a vlog for any of platforms out there showing such content, or placing it on my own site, but hesitate at the fact that I would look like absolute hell most of the time: dressed in work clothes, covered in dust or paint, busting my ass on various projects just to be undervalued and underpaid...not the cultured image most associate with success.  Sure, we hear about the journey later, after King or Rowling is a household name, but we\'re never along for the journey. \r\nLooking at you, cable and stream providers.  You\'re missing an opportunity here.\r\nCall me.\r\n\r\nUntil Next We Meet,\r\n\r\n~Namaste\r\n','The Writing Life','','publish','open','open','','the-writing-life','','','2021-12-04 13:52:09','2021-12-04 17:52:09','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=513',0,'post','',1),(514,1,'2021-12-04 13:52:09','2021-12-04 17:52:09','Hello All,\r\n\r\nI say \'all\' like more than a handful of people ever see this page, at least to my knowledge.  The stats are a bit misleading in that area, and I\'d have to do more digging than I care to in order to find just how many actual readers I have.  But no matter; if you are a fan or follower, I appreciate every page visit.\r\nBoth might see that I do not update my blog on a daily or even weekly basis.  Weeks and months can sometimes pass before I can write an update or post, which I am certain contributes to my relative obscurity in the writing world.\r\nThe reason for this is simple: life.\r\nThe life of a writer can be far from what those not involved in that particular obsession imagine.  Even the King\'s and Martin\'s and Rowling\'s of the world lived relatively hard lives before finally breaking onto the world stage, and for every successful author, there are a multitude that give up along the way, or are consumed by the pressures of life while trying.  The \'starving artist\' moniker is equally fitting to authors as they are to the painters and musicians who struggle to exist while also doing what they can to express their creative drive.  It is not an easy path, and but a few ever make it past all the exhaustion, pain, and stress required to rise above the sea of mediocrity we are forced to consume on a daily basis.  The struggle is long, fought with anxiety and worry, and so often unrewarding.  This has made me wonder why we haven\'t seen any reality shows centering around life of a writer; the drama alone would make good viewing,\r\nIn my case, this has been the story for most of my life.  As the years go by, the crises grow larger, the hours longer, the effort greater, while the rewards have lessened to become nigh non-existent.  Despite having a multitude of skills, an IQ over 140, a strong work-ethic, and years of experience in several fields, the damage done both physically and emotionally by the decade of abuse at the hands of a narcissistic sociopath, and more than two decades of abuse by our tragically ridiculous excuse for a justice system, has made it almost impossible to keep my head above water financially, and even when I manage to do so, the toll upon me can be severe, perfect fodder for reality television.  A camera crew could follow my attempts to find new gigs, as I work a second job managing the complex where I live, and all the other struggles an aspiring author faces while trying to produce what they hope will be the next bestseller, perfect fodder for all who are fascinated by the misery and drama in others lives.  I\'m not sure what kind of products could be sold in advertisements during such a program, but that\'s for the marketing gremlins to figure out.  I\'ve even considered starting a vlog for any of platforms out there showing such content, or placing it on my own site, but hesitate at the fact that I would look like absolute hell most of the time: dressed in work clothes, covered in dust or paint, busting my ass on various projects just to be undervalued and underpaid...not the cultured image most associate with success.  Sure, we hear about the journey later, after King or Rowling is a household name, but we\'re never along for the journey. \r\nLooking at you, cable and stream providers.  You\'re missing an opportunity here.\r\nCall me.\r\n\r\nUntil Next We Meet,\r\n\r\n~Namaste\r\n','The Writing Life','','inherit','closed','closed','','513-revision-v1','','','2021-12-04 13:52:09','2021-12-04 17:52:09','',513,'http://michaelvain.net/513-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(519,1,'2022-01-14 05:49:43','2022-01-14 09:49:43','Greetings Once Again From the Void...\r\n\r\nI\'m writing this at quarter to four in the morning, taking a break from a depression-induced manic streak.  I should be wrapping up my daily writing around this time, but my writing has suffered from motivation problems over the last couple of weeks.  This is not writer\'s block; I have plenty to say, should I actually take the time to sit in front of the keyboard, but I have had a hard time of late being able to bring myself to do so.  My particular cycle of depression and anxiety are best helped by writing in any form, and this has come to affect my writing process, becoming in fact a part of the process itself.  The interruptions are rare - as I\'ve said, I do not ever really suffer from writer\'s block in the conventional sense - but they do happen, and this has delayed the completion of my current novel.\r\nI had hoped to complete two books in 2021, but the second of the two works has turned out to be more of a project than I originally anticipated.  Currently, the new manuscript draft sits at forty-five complete chapters, and 116k words, and there could be as many as 50k more words to go.  I do a hybrid pantser/plotter process, so my notes give me a direction, but allow room for the Muse to roam where she likes.  This time around, however, I am required to do more fine-tuning on the third act, and the nature of the story requires more research than I\'ve ever done before, which I can but hope is a good thing, as it means I am attempting to leave my comfort zone as a writer.\r\nWill all the effort be worth it?  Time will tell, I guess.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste  ','Update: Jan 14, 2020','','publish','open','open','','update-jan-14-2020','','','2022-01-14 05:50:38','2022-01-14 09:50:38','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=519',0,'post','',0),(520,1,'2022-01-14 05:49:43','2022-01-14 09:49:43','Greetings Once Again From the Void...\r\n\r\nI\'m writing this at quarter to four in the morning, taking a break from a depression-induced manic streak.  I should be wrapping up my daily writing around this time, but my writing has suffered from motivation problems over the last couple of weeks.  This is not writer\'s block; I have plenty to say, should I actually take the time to sit in front of the keyboard, but I have had a hard time of late being able to bring myself to do so.  My particular cycle of depression and anxiety are best helped by writing in any form, and this has come to affect my writing process, becoming in fact a part of the process itself.  The interruptions are rare - as I\'ve said, I do not ever really suffer from writer\'s block in the conventional sense - but they do happen, and this has delayed the completion of my current novel.\r\nI had hoped to complete two books in 2021, but the second of the two works has turned out to be more of a project than I originally anticipated.  Currently, the new manuscript draft sits at forty-five complete chapters, and 116k words, and there could be as many as 50k more words to go.  I do a hybrid pantser/plotter process, so my notes give me a direction, but allow room for the Muse to roam where she likes.  This time around, however, I am required to do more fine-tuning on the third act, and the nature of the story requires more research than I\'ve ever done before, which I can but hope is a good thing, as it means I am attempting to leave my comfort zone as a writer.\r\nWill all the effort be worth it?  Time will tell, I guess.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste  ','Update: Jan 14, 2020','','inherit','closed','closed','','519-revision-v1','','','2022-01-14 05:49:43','2022-01-14 09:49:43','',519,'http://michaelvain.net/519-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(521,1,'2022-01-14 19:39:12','2022-01-14 23:39:12','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n	<h1>Available Now</h1>\n<h1>Strange Stories, Twisted Tales</h1>\n<p><img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2020/01/icon_strange.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"100\" height=\"150\" /></p>\n<p>Ten Strange stories and twisted tales to make you wonder and keep you up at night.</p>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<h4>Available:<br />\nMay 26, 2020<br />\n<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0892B8BG4\">E-Book and Paperback</a><br />\nNow Available!</h4>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<h4>Hardback available soon!</h4>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n	<h2>Coming 2022</h2>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<p>A new novel that combines elements of horror, the paranormal, and quantum physics.  The first draft is halfway completed, and I am looking to have the finished book ready sometime in the coming months, so stay tuned!</p>\n<h2>Coming - Late 2022</h2>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<p>A non-fiction account of a male victim of domestic abuse, and a court system unequipped and uncaring as to the dangers of narcissistic abuse.  Available late 2021, early 2022.</p>\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Future','','inherit','closed','closed','','224-revision-v1','','','2022-01-14 19:39:12','2022-01-14 23:39:12','',224,'http://michaelvain.net/224-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(522,1,'2022-01-14 21:02:05','2022-01-15 01:02:05','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n	<h1>Available Now</h1>\n<h1>Strange Stories, Twisted Tales</h1>\n<p><img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2020/01/icon_strange.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"100\" height=\"150\" /></p>\n<p>Ten Strange stories and twisted tales to make you wonder and keep you up at night.</p>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<h4>Available:<br />\nMay 26, 2020<br />\n<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0892B8BG4\">E-Book and Paperback</a><br />\nNow Available!</h4>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<h4>Hardback available soon!</h4>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n	<h2>Coming 2022</h2>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<p>A new novel that combines elements of horror, the paranormal, and quantum physics.  The first draft is two-thirds completed, and I am looking to have the finished book ready sometime in the coming months, so stay tuned!</p>\n<h2>Coming - Late 2022</h2>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<p>A non-fiction account of a male victim of domestic abuse, and a court system unequipped and uncaring as to the dangers of narcissistic abuse.  Available late 2021, early 2022.</p>\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Future','','inherit','closed','closed','','224-revision-v1','','','2022-01-14 21:02:05','2022-01-15 01:02:05','',224,'http://michaelvain.net/224-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(523,1,'2022-01-15 00:18:17','2022-01-15 04:18:17','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n	<h3>Click on the sections below to learn more</h3>\n	<ul>\n		<li><a href=\"http://www.michaelvain.net/about-the-author\" target=\"_self\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\"></a>		\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/about_mv01-150x150.jpg\" alt=\"Author Michael Vain standing at the gate to Poe\'s Tomb, Baltimore Md.\" itemprop=\"image\"/>\n		<h4>About the Author</h4><p>A short biography of Author/Artist Michael Vain.</p></li><li><a href=\"http://www.michaelvain.net/martial-arts\" target=\"_self\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\"></a>		\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/past_martial_Hanshi02.jpg\" alt=\"Hanshi Shugoro Nakazato\" itemprop=\"image\"/>\n		<h4>Martial Arts</h4><p>History and other information on the martial arts styles enjoyed by the author</p></li><li><a href=\"http://www.michaelvain.net/strange-events\" target=\"_self\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\"></a>		\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/past_strange_flood08.jpg\" alt=\"flood water photo of author\'s home\" itemprop=\"image\"/>\n		<h4>Strange Events</h4><p>Firsthand accounts of strange and unusual events experienced by the author.</p></li>	</ul>\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Past','','inherit','closed','closed','','172-revision-v1','','','2022-01-15 00:18:17','2022-01-15 04:18:17','',172,'http://michaelvain.net/172-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(525,1,'2022-02-16 01:29:45','2022-02-16 05:29:45','Greetings all,\r\n\r\nIt\'s been a rough couple weeks, and things do not look like they will be getting any easier in the near future.  Much like the main character in my current WIP, I have found myself swept up in events beyond my control, part of a larger pattern.  This has resulted in my having to work much longer days, as I\'ve not only been tasked with renovating one of the apartments in my building, but am also working full time in another construction-related job.  This would be fine, if not for a little thing called \'limits\'.  I have not worked for less than twelve and a half hours a day for the last month, with most days lasting much longer.  The work is physically demanding; my fingers are swollen, and it is painful to type. Exhaustion and physical pain have kept me from making any progress on my newest manuscript for a month, depriving me of both creative satisfaction and the natural therapy for my anxiety the activity provides. For artists, creativity and emotion are closely intertwined, and being deprived of the ability to express the former can have direct and profound effects on the latter. I\'ve been doing my best to deal with the pressures and tolls of my current circumstances, but the timing could not have been worse; I was at a critical point in the plot, and could not afford such an interruption.\r\nThis proved frustrating for some time, but there proved to be silver lining. The beginning of the current chapter seemed weak, and during my workday, I still have time for inspiration to make its way into my brain, even if I do not immediately have the time or opportunity to act upon it. In this case, the Muse gave me the beginning for what will lead into the third act of the novel, one that reads much better than what I have currently. It\'s a small win, but I\'ll take it, along with the determination to return to my regular writing schedule as soon as possible. It\'s been a longer hiatus than I would have liked, but I am determined to bring it to an end.\r\nBack to work...\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n~Namaste\r\n  ','Update - Feb. 15, 2022','','publish','open','open','','update-feb-15-2022','','','2022-02-16 01:29:45','2022-02-16 05:29:45','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=525',0,'post','',0),(526,1,'2022-02-16 01:29:45','2022-02-16 05:29:45','Greetings all,\r\n\r\nIt\'s been a rough couple weeks, and things do not look like they will be getting any easier in the near future.  Much like the main character in my current WIP, I have found myself swept up in events beyond my control, part of a larger pattern.  This has resulted in my having to work much longer days, as I\'ve not only been tasked with renovating one of the apartments in my building, but am also working full time in another construction-related job.  This would be fine, if not for a little thing called \'limits\'.  I have not worked for less than twelve and a half hours a day for the last month, with most days lasting much longer.  The work is physically demanding; my fingers are swollen, and it is painful to type. Exhaustion and physical pain have kept me from making any progress on my newest manuscript for a month, depriving me of both creative satisfaction and the natural therapy for my anxiety the activity provides. For artists, creativity and emotion are closely intertwined, and being deprived of the ability to express the former can have direct and profound effects on the latter. I\'ve been doing my best to deal with the pressures and tolls of my current circumstances, but the timing could not have been worse; I was at a critical point in the plot, and could not afford such an interruption.\r\nThis proved frustrating for some time, but there proved to be silver lining. The beginning of the current chapter seemed weak, and during my workday, I still have time for inspiration to make its way into my brain, even if I do not immediately have the time or opportunity to act upon it. In this case, the Muse gave me the beginning for what will lead into the third act of the novel, one that reads much better than what I have currently. It\'s a small win, but I\'ll take it, along with the determination to return to my regular writing schedule as soon as possible. It\'s been a longer hiatus than I would have liked, but I am determined to bring it to an end.\r\nBack to work...\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n~Namaste\r\n  ','Update - Feb. 15, 2022','','inherit','closed','closed','','525-revision-v1','','','2022-02-16 01:29:45','2022-02-16 05:29:45','',525,'http://michaelvain.net/525-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(532,1,'2022-04-17 23:18:07','2022-04-18 03:18:07','After a long buildup of events, I have been put into a position that requires me to find a new place to live.  The new owners of my building have proven to be a nightmare in their own right, creating a hostile workplace that is also my home.  They have required me to go way beyond my job description here, and I ended up doing over $10k worth of rehab work in the building for no pay, and harassing calls and texts when I finally said enough was enough.  In the process, I lost over 14 pounds, had my sleep and eating schedules disrupted, and subjected to severe stress and anxiety.  So, in addition to having to find a new place to call home, I need to deal with courts and lawyers, as I refuse to take this abuse sitting down.\r\nJust another weekend for this writer, boys and girls.\r\nFortunately, writing has been, and always will be, a means of therapy and solace for me, and thus, has not slowed my writing.  To the contrary, in times like these, I find myself writing more, which in a sense proves that art is born of pain, I suppose.  My current work in progress is currently a bit more than two-thirds complete in terms of the first draft.  It is my longest, and strangest, work to date I feel, and hope to have it completed this summer.  With luck, the events surrounding me will not entail too many delays, and I will complete this new novel on schedule.  The cover is complete, and I’m itching to do a title and cover reveal, so stay tuned.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n~Namaste\r\n','Update 4-17-2022','','publish','open','open','','update-4-17-2022','','','2022-04-17 23:18:41','2022-04-18 03:18:41','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=532',0,'post','',0),(533,1,'2022-04-17 23:18:07','2022-04-18 03:18:07','After a long buildup of events, I have been put into a position that requires me to find a new place to live.  The new owners of my building have proven to be a nightmare in their own right, creating a hostile workplace that is also my home.  They have required me to go way beyond my job description here, and I ended up doing over $10k worth of rehab work in the building for no pay, and harassing calls and texts when I finally said enough was enough.  In the process, I lost over 14 pounds, had my sleep and eating schedules disrupted, and subjected to severe stress and anxiety.  So, in addition to having to find a new place to call home, I need to deal with courts and lawyers, as I refuse to take this abuse sitting down.\r\nJust another weekend for this writer, boys and girls.\r\nFortunately, writing has been, and always will be, a means of therapy and solace for me, and thus, has not slowed my writing.  To the contrary, in times like these, I find myself writing more, which in a sense proves that art is born of pain, I suppose.  My current work in progress is currently a bit more than two-thirds complete in terms of the first draft.  It is my longest, and strangest, work to date I feel, and hope to have it completed this summer.  With luck, the events surrounding me will not entail too many delays, and I will complete this new novel on schedule.  The cover is complete, and I’m itching to do a title and cover reveal, so stay tuned.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n~Namaste\r\n','Update 4-17-2022','','inherit','closed','closed','','532-revision-v1','','','2022-04-17 23:18:07','2022-04-18 03:18:07','',532,'http://michaelvain.net/532-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(535,1,'2022-05-16 23:26:54','2022-05-17 03:26:54','Greetings All!\r\n\r\nThe days since my last post have been busy and action-packed. Mercury went retrograde, and regardless of any belief or lack thereof in such things, my life promptly shifted into the Bizarro Zone.  In addition to the goings on with the new owners of the building, and the chaos factor being turned up to 11, both in my life and seemingly in the world at large, I\'ve also attracted the attention of a possible stalker, possibly from Twitter, but most likely a demented soul who turns up to throw insults at me on various public media from time to time.  Fucked up, I know, but what are ya gonna do?  \r\nSo, things have been strange.  Were I an interstellar or inter-dimensional traveler, I\'d take one look and nope out of this bullshit, boys and girls.\r\nAlso, during the last few weeks here in Virginia, Johnny Depp has been involved in a case against the Narcissistic Monster I will forever refer to as Amber Turd.  As a male victim of narcissistic, legal, and domestic abuse, one who, like many victims of this heinous crime of the soul, has spent years researching and studying personality disorders in order to better understand and heal from the damage inflicted by these creatures, I can applaud Mr. Depp\'s resolve in bringing these crimes to light. It is difficult for me, as I am sure it is for many, to watch or read of the proceedings without the possibility of anxiety or flashback symptoms, but it is also important, as it brings to light the inequality in the domestic court system, both in this country and elsewhere.  After over four years of research, combined with many years of personal experience, I can say with absolute confidence that Mr. Depp is indeed the victim in this case, and that Amber Turd exhibits the exact traits consistent with the diagnosis presented - Histrionic Personality Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder, a combination I attributed to my own grandmother, and a diagnosis I doubted due to both my amateur status and my ignorance of that particular combination being attributed to anyone else, until now.\r\nIt is my hope Mr. Depp will be vindicated.  In addition to the testimony of his peers and friends, there is also the fact most of his roles - his preferred ones - seem to reflect his inner self: a gentle, harmless soul whose art separates them a bit from society.  I am glad this trial concerns the defamation aspect, for if it was being held in domestic or family court, there would be no weeks long trial, no jury, no televised or recorded proceedings.  Everything would be decided within 15 minutes, with Mr. Depp being found guilty regardless of truth of fact, subjected to yet more abuse by the legal system, and made to pay for the experience, something I can attest to personally.  Mr. Depp had his bed shit on, and the woman threw a vodka bottle, severing the tip of his finger.  I was kicked through a wall, defamed, and my ex self-terminated (aborted) our second child, and then lied about it to gain sympathy and care for another year.  The patterns of abusive behavior are the same for these creatures, which lack the empathy that is a key component to what it means to truly be human.\r\nI wish Mr. Depp the best of luck. The court system is corrupt and biased, a world where the common man has little to no chance of having his voice heard, unless he\'s either set financially, a narcissistic abuser, or both. It is my hope this brings more attention and critique of the system in place, and leads to more balance in our courtrooms.  We need a better way to address matters of abuse, and an overhaul not only of the domestic court system, but of our entire \'justice\' system.\r\nUntil that happens, the term is not only a misnomer, but a sad disgrace.\r\n\r\nUntil Next Time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Johnny Depp & Other Thoughts','','publish','open','open','','johnny-depp-other-thoughts','','','2022-05-16 23:29:06','2022-05-17 03:29:06','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=535',0,'post','',0),(536,1,'2022-05-16 23:26:54','2022-05-17 03:26:54','Greetings All!\r\n\r\nThe days since my last post have been busy and action-packed. Mercury went retrograde, and regardless of any belief or lack thereof in such things, my life promptly shifted into the Bizarro Zone.  In addition to the goings on with the new owners of the building, and the chaos factor being turned up to 11, both in my life and seemingly in the world at large, I\'ve also attracted the attention of a possible stalker, possibly from Twitter, but most likely a demented soul who turns up to throw insults at me on various public media from time to time.  Fucked up, I know, but what are ya gonna do?  \r\nSo, things have been strange.  Were I an interstellar or inter-dimensional traveler, I\'d take one look and nope out of this bullshit, boys and girls.\r\nAlso, during the last few weeks here in Virginia, Johnny Depp has been involved in a case against the Narcissistic Monster I will forever refer to as Amber Turd.  As a male victim of narcissistic, legal, and domestic abuse, one who, like many victims of this heinous crime of the soul, has spent years researching and studying personality disorders in order to better understand and heal from the damage inflicted by these creatures, I can applaud Mr. Depp\'s resolve in bringing these crimes to light. It is difficult for me, as I am sure it is for many, to watch or read of the proceedings without the possibility of anxiety or flashback symptoms, but it is also important, as it brings to light the inequality in the domestic court system, both in this country and elsewhere.  After over four years of research, combined with many years of personal experience, I can say with absolute confidence that Mr. Depp is indeed the victim in this case, and that Amber Turd exhibits the exact traits consistent with the diagnosis presented - Histrionic Personality Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder, a combination I attributed to my own grandmother, and a diagnosis I doubted due to both my amateur status and my ignorance of that particular combination being attributed to anyone else, until now.\r\nIt is my hope Mr. Depp will be vindicated.  In addition to the testimony of his peers and friends, there is also the fact most of his roles - his preferred ones - seem to reflect his inner self: a gentle, harmless soul whose art separates them a bit from society.  I am glad this trial concerns the defamation aspect, for if it was being held in domestic or family court, there would be no weeks long trial, no jury, no televised or recorded proceedings.  Everything would be decided within 15 minutes, with Mr. Depp being found guilty regardless of truth of fact, subjected to yet more abuse by the legal system, and made to pay for the experience, something I can attest to personally.  Mr. Depp had his bed shit on, and the woman threw a vodka bottle, severing the tip of his finger.  I was kicked through a wall, defamed, and my ex self-terminated (aborted) our second child, and then lied about it to gain sympathy and care for another year.  The patterns of abusive behavior are the same for these creatures, which lack the empathy that is a key component to what it means to truly be human.\r\nI wish Mr. Depp the best of luck. The court system is corrupt and biased, a world where the common man has little to no chance of having his voice heard, unless he\'s either set financially, a narcissistic abuser, or both. It is my hope this brings more attention and critique of the system in place, and leads to more balance in our courtrooms.  We need a better way to address matters of abuse, and an overhaul not only of the domestic court system, but of our entire \'justice\' system.\r\nUntil that happens, the term is not only a misnomer, but a sad disgrace.\r\n\r\nUntil Next Time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','The Johnny Depp Trial & Other Thoughts','','inherit','closed','closed','','535-revision-v1','','','2022-05-16 23:26:54','2022-05-17 03:26:54','',535,'http://michaelvain.net/535-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(537,1,'2022-05-16 23:29:06','2022-05-17 03:29:06','Greetings All!\r\n\r\nThe days since my last post have been busy and action-packed. Mercury went retrograde, and regardless of any belief or lack thereof in such things, my life promptly shifted into the Bizarro Zone.  In addition to the goings on with the new owners of the building, and the chaos factor being turned up to 11, both in my life and seemingly in the world at large, I\'ve also attracted the attention of a possible stalker, possibly from Twitter, but most likely a demented soul who turns up to throw insults at me on various public media from time to time.  Fucked up, I know, but what are ya gonna do?  \r\nSo, things have been strange.  Were I an interstellar or inter-dimensional traveler, I\'d take one look and nope out of this bullshit, boys and girls.\r\nAlso, during the last few weeks here in Virginia, Johnny Depp has been involved in a case against the Narcissistic Monster I will forever refer to as Amber Turd.  As a male victim of narcissistic, legal, and domestic abuse, one who, like many victims of this heinous crime of the soul, has spent years researching and studying personality disorders in order to better understand and heal from the damage inflicted by these creatures, I can applaud Mr. Depp\'s resolve in bringing these crimes to light. It is difficult for me, as I am sure it is for many, to watch or read of the proceedings without the possibility of anxiety or flashback symptoms, but it is also important, as it brings to light the inequality in the domestic court system, both in this country and elsewhere.  After over four years of research, combined with many years of personal experience, I can say with absolute confidence that Mr. Depp is indeed the victim in this case, and that Amber Turd exhibits the exact traits consistent with the diagnosis presented - Histrionic Personality Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder, a combination I attributed to my own grandmother, and a diagnosis I doubted due to both my amateur status and my ignorance of that particular combination being attributed to anyone else, until now.\r\nIt is my hope Mr. Depp will be vindicated.  In addition to the testimony of his peers and friends, there is also the fact most of his roles - his preferred ones - seem to reflect his inner self: a gentle, harmless soul whose art separates them a bit from society.  I am glad this trial concerns the defamation aspect, for if it was being held in domestic or family court, there would be no weeks long trial, no jury, no televised or recorded proceedings.  Everything would be decided within 15 minutes, with Mr. Depp being found guilty regardless of truth of fact, subjected to yet more abuse by the legal system, and made to pay for the experience, something I can attest to personally.  Mr. Depp had his bed shit on, and the woman threw a vodka bottle, severing the tip of his finger.  I was kicked through a wall, defamed, and my ex self-terminated (aborted) our second child, and then lied about it to gain sympathy and care for another year.  The patterns of abusive behavior are the same for these creatures, which lack the empathy that is a key component to what it means to truly be human.\r\nI wish Mr. Depp the best of luck. The court system is corrupt and biased, a world where the common man has little to no chance of having his voice heard, unless he\'s either set financially, a narcissistic abuser, or both. It is my hope this brings more attention and critique of the system in place, and leads to more balance in our courtrooms.  We need a better way to address matters of abuse, and an overhaul not only of the domestic court system, but of our entire \'justice\' system.\r\nUntil that happens, the term is not only a misnomer, but a sad disgrace.\r\n\r\nUntil Next Time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Johnny Depp & Other Thoughts','','inherit','closed','closed','','535-revision-v1','','','2022-05-16 23:29:06','2022-05-17 03:29:06','',535,'http://michaelvain.net/535-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(538,1,'2022-05-22 20:43:05','2022-05-23 00:43:05','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n	<h6>\n            List of all written works by the author.\n            </h6><br />\n<h5>Novellas and short stories</h5>            \n\nVain, Michael <i>\"The Minstrel\"</i> Smashwords (e-book edition) 2013 (novella)\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Groovin\' to the Zombie Apocalypse\"</i>, 2013 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"BOO!\"</i>, 2018 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Nobody\'s Hero\"</i>, 2018 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p> \n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Easy Prey\"</i>, 2019 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Lullaby\"</i>, 2018 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange STories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"The Last Story\"</i>, 2019 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange STories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, MIchael <i>\"Polymech\"</i>, 2002 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"The Message\"</i>, 2020 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Roadkill\"</i>, 2020 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"The Old Names\" (poem)</i>, 2009 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i> 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"I Will\" (poem)</i>, 2009 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i> 2020)</p>\n<h5>Novels</h5>\n  \n      Vain, Michael <i>\"Highway Hypnosis\"</i> 2016 (novel)\n<h5>Collections</h5>\n   \n       Vain, Michael <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i> 2020\n   \n<h5>Other Works</h5> \n    \n      Vain, Michael <i>\"A Comparison of the Inherant Stress-Causing Factors between the Polygraph and Psychological Stress Evaluator\"</i> Springfield, Va. Dektor Counterintelligence and Security, (technical paper)\n   \n   \n      Vain, Michael <i>\"Reflections of the Virtues of the Warrior as Taught in Shorin-Ryu Karate-Do\"</i> Hampton, Va., North American Shorin Ryu Karate Association (1st Dan Thesis)\n                \n                <br />                \n                <br />\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Bibliography','','inherit','closed','closed','','159-revision-v1','','','2022-05-22 20:43:05','2022-05-23 00:43:05','',159,'http://michaelvain.net/159-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(539,1,'2022-05-22 20:46:54','2022-05-23 00:46:54','','flweroflifebw400a','','inherit','open','closed','','flweroflifebw400a','','','2022-05-22 20:55:01','2022-05-23 00:55:01','',224,'http://michaelvain.net/wp-content/uploads/2022/05/flweroflifebw400a.jpg',0,'attachment','image/jpeg',0),(540,1,'2022-05-22 20:47:02','2022-05-23 00:47:02','','bw_fractal','','inherit','open','closed','','bw_fractal','','','2022-05-22 20:47:02','2022-05-23 00:47:02','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/wp-content/uploads/2022/05/bw_fractal.jpg',0,'attachment','image/jpeg',0),(541,1,'2022-05-22 20:47:13','2022-05-23 00:47:13','','superposition02_clean','','inherit','open','closed','','superposition02_clean','','','2022-05-22 20:47:13','2022-05-23 00:47:13','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/wp-content/uploads/2022/05/superposition02_clean.jpg',0,'attachment','image/jpeg',0),(544,1,'2022-06-07 22:41:34','2022-06-08 02:41:34','Greetings all,\r\n\r\nIn case anyone was paying attention, the site may have gone down for a day or two.  That was completely on me; I lost track of time and forgot to renew my domain for a bit, but that\'s all fixed now.\r\nWhen I have time, I\'ll be tinkering with the pages again, not so much for appearance but to clean up some mobile issues and change some content I\'m not quite happy with at the moment.  Websites are always a work in progress, and that is true for this site as well.\r\nOn the writing front, I\'ve begun the last group of chapters for my current work in progress.  It is a long work, the longest I\'ve written so far, and though this is still a first draft, I do not know how much I would cut in the editing process. I do not usually waste time on elements of the manuscript that are not integral to the story, or the characters.  I may find a way to condense some sections, but even so, this book will still be longer than my other works. With my hectic schedule, it may become a race against time to finish my first draft before I need to move, and I\'ll cross that bridge when and if I come to it.\r\nUntil then, I\'ll just keep writing.  The finish line for this new book is in sight.\r\n\r\nTil\' Next Time -\r\n~Namaste','Quick Vanishing Act','','publish','open','open','','quick-vanishing-act','','','2022-06-07 22:41:34','2022-06-08 02:41:34','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=544',0,'post','',0),(545,1,'2022-06-07 22:41:34','2022-06-08 02:41:34','Greetings all,\r\n\r\nIn case anyone was paying attention, the site may have gone down for a day or two.  That was completely on me; I lost track of time and forgot to renew my domain for a bit, but that\'s all fixed now.\r\nWhen I have time, I\'ll be tinkering with the pages again, not so much for appearance but to clean up some mobile issues and change some content I\'m not quite happy with at the moment.  Websites are always a work in progress, and that is true for this site as well.\r\nOn the writing front, I\'ve begun the last group of chapters for my current work in progress.  It is a long work, the longest I\'ve written so far, and though this is still a first draft, I do not know how much I would cut in the editing process. I do not usually waste time on elements of the manuscript that are not integral to the story, or the characters.  I may find a way to condense some sections, but even so, this book will still be longer than my other works. With my hectic schedule, it may become a race against time to finish my first draft before I need to move, and I\'ll cross that bridge when and if I come to it.\r\nUntil then, I\'ll just keep writing.  The finish line for this new book is in sight.\r\n\r\nTil\' Next Time -\r\n~Namaste','Quick Vanishing Act','','inherit','closed','closed','','544-revision-v1','','','2022-06-07 22:41:34','2022-06-08 02:41:34','',544,'http://michaelvain.net/544-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(547,1,'2022-07-04 11:52:34','2022-07-04 15:52:34','The Fourth of July was one of those holidays I liked when I was young, as most American children do I suppose.  As a child, the summer holiday meant cook-outs, family gatherings (which, growing up in Maryland meant \'crab-feast\'), and fireworks, of course.  I was given the full course of propaganda growing up, and for most of my elementary school education drank the \'ain\'t we great\' kool-aid.  It wasn\'t about until I entered middle school that l began to see more of the real world, but the enjoyment of the celebration itself remained.  I enjoyed going through the ritual of seeing the live fireworks displays, and later shared that experience with my children.  We would go to see the yearly displays wherever we lived at the time, and on one occasion got to see them out in the desert on what was perhaps their most enjoyable childhood vacation.\r\nThe holiday took on another aspect when I met Kali, who happened to have that day as her birthday.  The celebration was a birthday celebration for both, and for those years it was almost always a joyful event.  The fireworks would be the close of a full day of birthday shenanigans or other joyous activity, and were perhaps some of the best holidays since my childhood.\r\nThis all changed when I met Michelle.  Every holiday, every otherwise joyful occasion, takes on a different tone in a narcissistic relationship, as does almost every other aspect of life.  During that time, the holiday changed into a day of loss and longing.  During this time and to the present, I have missed more of the celebrations than I have attended, and it has come to represent the darkest times and moments of a relationship that almost ended my life, and will continue to affect me on a physical level for the remainder of my days.  Since meeting the now-ex, events in my life began to form a pattern, a cycle of crisis that repeats every number of years.  I\'ve noticed some OCD tendencies in myself, enough to where such patterns stand out, and this is one of those periods.  Instead of going out to see the fireworks or going to see family, I\'ll be packing in preparation to move.  I don\'t see this as a crisis in this case, however, but as a natural event in the process of healing, which can be a long and difficult process for survivors of abuse.  It is difficult, to be sure, as like in other similar times the timing is in conjunction with other pressing matters simultaneously, but without the emotional drain and other negative factors involved with a narcissist in the picture, I can face it with a much different perspective.  So, instead of it being negative, it has now become a period of intense forward mobility.  A lot is going to happen over the course of this summer, including the completion of the longest, strangest thing I\'ve ever written, and once done, there will be nowhere to go but up.\r\nAnd maybe next year, I\'ll have a reason to go see the fireworks.\r\n\r\n~Namaste\r\n','Cycles - Another 4th of July','','publish','open','open','','cycles-another-4th-of-july','','','2022-07-04 11:52:34','2022-07-04 15:52:34','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=547',0,'post','',0),(548,1,'2022-07-04 11:52:34','2022-07-04 15:52:34','The Fourth of July was one of those holidays I liked when I was young, as most American children do I suppose.  As a child, the summer holiday meant cook-outs, family gatherings (which, growing up in Maryland meant \'crab-feast\'), and fireworks, of course.  I was given the full course of propaganda growing up, and for most of my elementary school education drank the \'ain\'t we great\' kool-aid.  It wasn\'t about until I entered middle school that l began to see more of the real world, but the enjoyment of the celebration itself remained.  I enjoyed going through the ritual of seeing the live fireworks displays, and later shared that experience with my children.  We would go to see the yearly displays wherever we lived at the time, and on one occasion got to see them out in the desert on what was perhaps their most enjoyable childhood vacation.\r\nThe holiday took on another aspect when I met Kali, who happened to have that day as her birthday.  The celebration was a birthday celebration for both, and for those years it was almost always a joyful event.  The fireworks would be the close of a full day of birthday shenanigans or other joyous activity, and were perhaps some of the best holidays since my childhood.\r\nThis all changed when I met Michelle.  Every holiday, every otherwise joyful occasion, takes on a different tone in a narcissistic relationship, as does almost every other aspect of life.  During that time, the holiday changed into a day of loss and longing.  During this time and to the present, I have missed more of the celebrations than I have attended, and it has come to represent the darkest times and moments of a relationship that almost ended my life, and will continue to affect me on a physical level for the remainder of my days.  Since meeting the now-ex, events in my life began to form a pattern, a cycle of crisis that repeats every number of years.  I\'ve noticed some OCD tendencies in myself, enough to where such patterns stand out, and this is one of those periods.  Instead of going out to see the fireworks or going to see family, I\'ll be packing in preparation to move.  I don\'t see this as a crisis in this case, however, but as a natural event in the process of healing, which can be a long and difficult process for survivors of abuse.  It is difficult, to be sure, as like in other similar times the timing is in conjunction with other pressing matters simultaneously, but without the emotional drain and other negative factors involved with a narcissist in the picture, I can face it with a much different perspective.  So, instead of it being negative, it has now become a period of intense forward mobility.  A lot is going to happen over the course of this summer, including the completion of the longest, strangest thing I\'ve ever written, and once done, there will be nowhere to go but up.\r\nAnd maybe next year, I\'ll have a reason to go see the fireworks.\r\n\r\n~Namaste\r\n','Cycles - Another 4th of July','','inherit','closed','closed','','547-revision-v1','','','2022-07-04 11:52:34','2022-07-04 15:52:34','',547,'http://michaelvain.net/547-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(550,1,'2022-07-27 01:56:29','2022-07-27 05:56:29','Greetings everyone,\r\n\r\nThings have been hectic lately, as I am packing up to move (one of my absolute least favorite things to do), and I haven\'t had much time to post updates.  To give an example, it is after 1:30 in the morning when I am writing this, and I returned from an 18 hour workday about half an hour ago. I am feeling a bit loopy, to be completely honest, which may have something to do with my current train of thought, and the nature of this post.\r\nI like to give insights and examples into the life of a writer of (albeit strange) fiction, and those that know me know I have no shame. I don\'t mind posting stuff I would never publish, or writing about my personal life experiences.  Tonight, I\'m throwing out the former.\r\nHere is a piece I wrote some number of years ago, more than likely at some ungodly early morning hour when the only things stirring are mating feral cats and barn owls, when I had time to just follow whatever inspiration struck me at the time. The little scene below is unedited, an exercise in just typing and seeing where it took me.\r\nDon\'t judge...it\'s just for shits and giggles, folks.\r\n\r\nTHE FIEND, THE MESSENGER, AND THE DREAMTIME DAIRY-QUEEN\r\n\r\nThere is no warning.  All I know is that I\'m sitting facing a food court style Dairy Queen Booth.  The table appears to be plastic, as is the chair I\'m sitting in. \r\nOooookay, I think.  This is new.\r\nI look around, curious.  The Dairy Queen is empty, as is the rest of the food court.  I can see other booths lining the area, Burger King and Manchu Wok and Subway and Cinnebon and Sbarro\'s - all deserted.\r\nThere are no smells.  I am surrounded by silence.\r\nI catch a hint of movement from the corner of my eye.  Turning, I see a form moving toward me.  It is a man, and although he isn\'t the largest human I\'ve ever met, he definitely belongs to the same club.\r\nHe walks around the tables, and sits in front of me.  The air around him shimmers and glows as he moves, and I know two things at that moment. \r\nOne, is that I\'m in the dream-realm. \r\nThe other is that, whoever or whatever he might be, he isn\'t human.\r\nNormally, I\'m a bit more reserved, but lately, my temper has been a bit on the short side, and I\'m even less in the mood for games than usual.  I consider just doing what I can to rend this thing limb from limb, but the thought no sooner takes form than he smiles, and when he does, his eyes flash yellow.  It is a color I\'ve seen  before.\r\n\"No, I\'m not the one you call the Wolf-Bear, little Grinder, Son of Cain,\" he says. \r\nHe uses the old names, but the smile on his face is one of sarcasm; and I know he realizes, as I do, that they are merely words, words with no real meaning.\r\n\"Who are you, then?\"  I ask.\r\n\"Someone who was sent to give you a message,\" he replies.\r\n\"And you found it necessary to steal a human dream-form for this?\"\r\n\"It\'s easier for purposes of communication.  You, better than most, should know that value in that.\"  \r\nI want to reply to that, but I hold my tongue.  He does have a point.\r\nI wave my hand at the empty stores.  \"Interesting place for a meeting.  Having a craving for a milkshake, maybe?\"\r\nHe looks past me into the food court.  \"This dream is his,\" he says, before looking back to me, \"would you be more comfortable in a Scylding hall?  The plaza of a Mayan city, perhaps?  The halls of Babylon?\"\r\n\"Not really, \" I reply, \"One setting is as good as another.  What about your host?  I know you can\'t hold this form for very long, without damage.  I trust he will be unharmed, or do you even care?\"\r\n\"It will be just another dream,\" he smiles,  \"with no more harm done than any other.  As long as I finish my business here in due time, that is.\"\r\n\"Meaning?\"\r\nHis eyes flare yellow again.  \"Meaning you should still yourself, and listen.\"\r\nI force myself to remain calm.  It takes some effort.  \"Speak then.\"\r\n\"The message I bring is simple, little one, and it is this:  a weapon, once dulled, must either be sharpened, or tossed aside.  You had a path once.  Even deemed yourself a Sword of Karma, ridiculous as that is, but even a Sword of Karma is useless without an edge.\"\r\nI start to protest, to tell him that I am already doing all that I can, but he cuts me off before the words find form.\r\n\"You are next to nothing,\" he says.  The air ripples around the dream image of the human he has stolen, blue  and scarlet, and the impression I feel, is of restraint.  \"And if you weren\'t spending so much time feeling sorry for yourself, you would know that.\"\r\n\"I\'m not . . .\"\r\n\"Of course you are.  You\'re nothing but a whining, puling little brat, and were it up to me, I\'d let you wallow in your own pity until you collapsed under its weight, but luckily for you, others think you may have potential yet.\"\r\n\"Why?  Why would anyone think that?\" \r\n\"Two reasons,\" he says.  \"The first is that, unlike any of your kind before you, you have tried to elevate yourself beyond mere being.  This has not happened before, and is likely not to happen again.\"\r\nThis is a surprise, not because I was unaware of my own efforts in this regard, but that it meant anything to anyone other than myself.  But it is his next answer that really gets my attention.\r\n\"And the other?\" \r\n\"The second, is because more subtle life lessons have been lost upon you.  Most, upon reaching your level of awareness, come to appreciate life more when it is nearly taken from them.  Again, had it been up to me, I would have let you perish on the highway, as I do not care for your kind, beneficial to your hosts as you may be.  Still, it was decided then that a more . . . direct approach would be in order.\"\r\nI feel myself growing warm with anger.  \"Left me on the highway?  Is that supposed to be a joke? Is that what you mean about a life lesson?  You . . .you fuck!\"\r\n\"You know it could have been much worse, worse even than the oblivion to which you have sent so many lesser beings.\"I find myself sputtering, unable to form a proper response.  \"That\'s . . . that is just . . .\"\r\n\"Unjust?  Unfair?\"  Even under its guise, I can see that this being is taking some sort of pleasure in this, and that fuels my anger even more.  \"In your whining, you have hit upon at least one truth, little spirit.  You feel as if the penalties for your mistakes are greater than those of men.  Of course they are.  That you have gotten  as far as you have, have been allowed to enjoy the pleasures and pain of men, has only been due to the sheer benevolence of that to which we all answer.  Accept this, for to do otherwise would be at your peril.   Remember what you have been told.  You will not be told again.\"\r\nThere are so many things I want to say, so much that I want to know.  What of the Wolf-Bear? Does the same thing hold true for him?  Are we all held equally accountable?  Have all my deaths and near-deaths been to the same purpose?  \r\nBut I am denied.  The world falls apart around me, and all is darkness.\r\nI wake up on my bed, and look at the clock.  It is still early evening.  I remember laying down earlier that afternoon in an attempt to stretch my aching back muscles, but I had not thought myself tired enough for sleep to come that easily.  I am sweating, and when I lift my hand to wipe it from my face, I see my hand is trembling. \r\nI spend the next few hours recovering, and make notes on my encounter.  I know that the details, however stark, will fade with time, like all dreams, and I want to capture as much as I can.  I know however, that while the memories of this day may lessen through time, the message will stay with me.\r\nWeapons, once dulled, must be brought back to order, or cast aside.\r\nAnd that is something I cannot forget.','And Now for Something Completely Different...','','publish','open','open','','and-now-for-something-completely-different','','','2022-07-27 01:56:29','2022-07-27 05:56:29','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=550',0,'post','',0);
INSERT INTO `wpps_posts` VALUES (551,1,'2022-07-27 01:54:46','2022-07-27 05:54:46','Greetings everyone,\r\n\r\nThings have been hectic lately, as I am packing up to move (one of my absolute least favorite things to do), and I haven\'t had much time to post updates.  To give an example, it is after 1:30 in the morning when I am writing this, and I returned from an 18 hour workday about half an hour ago. I am feeling a bit loopy, to be completely honest, which may have something to do with my current train of thought, and the nature of this post.\r\nI like to give insights and examples into the life of a writer of (albeit strange) fiction, and those that know me know I have no shame. I don\'t mind posting stuff I would never publish, or writing about my personal life experiences.  Tonight, I\'m throwing out the former.\r\nHere is a piece I wrote some number of years ago, more than likely at some ungodly early morning hour when the only things stirring are mating feral cats and barn owls, when I had time to just follow whatever inspiration struck me at the time. The little scene below is unedited, an exercise in just typing and seeing where it took me.\r\nDon\'t judge...it\'s just for shits and giggles, folks.\r\n\r\nTHE FIEND, THE MESSENGER, AND THE DREAMTIME DAIRY-QUEEN\r\n\r\nThere is no warning.  All I know is that I\'m sitting facing a food court style Dairy Queen Booth.  The table appears to be plastic, as is the chair I\'m sitting in. \r\nOooookay, I think.  This is new.\r\nI look around, curious.  The Dairy Queen is empty, as is the rest of the food court.  I can see other booths lining the area, Burger King and Manchu Wok and Subway and Cinnebon and Sbarro\'s - all deserted.\r\nThere are no smells.  I am surrounded by silence.\r\nI catch a hint of movement from the corner of my eye.  Turning, I see a form moving toward me.  It is a man, and although he isn\'t the largest human I\'ve ever met, he definitely belongs to the same club.\r\nHe walks around the tables, and sits in front of me.  The air around him shimmers and glows as he moves, and I know two things at that moment. \r\nOne, is that I\'m in the dream-realm. \r\nThe other is that, whoever or whatever he might be, he isn\'t human.\r\nNormally, I\'m a bit more reserved, but lately, my temper has been a bit on the short side, and I\'m even less in the mood for games than usual.  I consider just doing what I can to rend this thing limb from limb, but the thought no sooner takes form than he smiles, and when he does, his eyes flash yellow.  It is a color I\'ve seen  before.\r\n\"No, I\'m not the one you call the Wolf-Bear, little Grinder, Son of Cain,\" he says. \r\nHe uses the old names, but the smile on his face is one of sarcasm; and I know he realizes, as I do, that they are merely words, words with no real meaning.\r\n\"Who are you, then?\"  I ask.\r\n\"Someone who was sent to give you a message,\" he replies.\r\n\"And you found it necessary to steal a human dream-form for this?\"\r\n\"It\'s easier for purposes of communication.  You, better than most, should know that value in that.\"  \r\nI want to reply to that, but I hold my tongue.  He does have a point.\r\nI wave my hand at the empty stores.  \"Interesting place for a meeting.  Having a craving for a milkshake, maybe?\"\r\nHe looks past me into the food court.  \"This dream is his,\" he says, before looking back to me, \"would you be more comfortable in a Scylding hall?  The plaza of a Mayan city, perhaps?  The halls of Babylon?\"\r\n\"Not really, \" I reply, \"One setting is as good as another.  What about your host?  I know you can\'t hold this form for very long, without damage.  I trust he will be unharmed, or do you even care?\"\r\n\"It will be just another dream,\" he smiles,  \"with no more harm done than any other.  As long as I finish my business here in due time, that is.\"\r\n\"Meaning?\"\r\nHis eyes flare yellow again.  \"Meaning you should still yourself, and listen.\"\r\nI force myself to remain calm.  It takes some effort.  \"Speak then.\"\r\n\"The message I bring is simple, little one, and it is this:  a weapon, once dulled, must either be sharpened, or tossed aside.  You had a path once.  Even deemed yourself a Sword of Karma, ridiculous as that is, but even a Sword of Karma is useless without an edge.\"\r\nI start to protest, to tell him that I am already doing all that I can, but he cuts me off before the words find form.\r\n\"You are next to nothing,\" he says.  The air ripples around the dream image of the human he has stolen, blue  and scarlet, and the impression I feel, is of restraint.  \"And if you weren\'t spending so much time feeling sorry for yourself, you would know that.\"\r\n\"I\'m not . . .\"\r\n\"Of course you are.  You\'re nothing but a whining, puling little brat, and were it up to me, I\'d let you wallow in your own pity until you collapsed under its weight, but luckily for you, others think you may have potential yet.\"\r\n\"Why?  Why would anyone think that?\" \r\n\"Two reasons,\" he says.  \"The first is that, unlike any of your kind before you, you have tried to elevate yourself beyond mere being.  This has not happened before, and is likely not to happen again.\"\r\nThis is a surprise, not because I was unaware of my own efforts in this regard, but that it meant anything to anyone other than myself.  But it is his next answer that really gets my attention.\r\n\"And the other?\" \r\n\"The second, is because more subtle life lessons have been lost upon you.  Most, upon reaching your level of awareness, come to appreciate life more when it is nearly taken from them.  Again, had it been up to me, I would have let you perish on the highway, as I do not care for your kind, beneficial to your hosts as you may be.  Still, it was decided then that a more . . . direct approach would be in order.\"\r\nI feel myself growing warm with anger.  \"Left me on the highway?  Is that supposed to be a joke? Is that what you mean about a life lesson?  You . . .you fuck!\"\r\n\"You know it could have been much worse, worse even than the oblivion to which you have sent so many lesser beings.\"I find myself sputtering, unable to form a proper response.  \"That\'s . . . that is just . . .\"\r\n\"Unjust?  Unfair?\"  Even under its guise, I can see that this being is taking some sort of pleasure in this, and that fuels my anger even more.  \"In your whining, you have hit upon at least one truth, little spirit.  You feel as if the penalties for your mistakes are greater than those of men.  Of course they are.  That you have gotten  as far as you have, have been allowed to enjoy the pleasures and pain of men, has only been due to the sheer benevolence of that to which we all answer.  Accept this, for to do otherwise would be at your peril.   Remember what you have been told.  You will not be told again.\"\r\nThere are so many things I want to say, so much that I want to know.  What of the Wolf-Bear? Does the same thing hold true for him?  Are we all held equally accountable?  Have all my deaths and near-deaths been to the same purpose?  \r\nBut I am denied.  The world falls apart around me, and all is darkness.\r\nI wake up on my bed, and look at the clock.  It is still early evening.  I remember laying down earlier that afternoon in an attempt to stretch my aching back muscles, but I had not thought myself tired enough for sleep to come that easily.  I am sweating, and when I lift my hand to wipe it from my face, I see my hand is trembling. \r\nI spend the next few hours recovering, and make notes on my encounter.  I know that the details, however stark, will fade with time, like all dreams, and I want to capture as much as I can.  I know however, that while the memories of this day may lessen through time, the message will stay with me.\r\nWeapons, once dulled, must be brought back to order, or cast aside.\r\nAnd that is something I cannot forget.','And Now for Something Completely Different...','','inherit','closed','closed','','550-revision-v1','','','2022-07-27 01:54:46','2022-07-27 05:54:46','',550,'http://michaelvain.net/550-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(554,1,'2022-08-21 11:32:28','2022-08-21 15:32:28','Greetings.\r\n\r\nIt\'s been a hectic summer. New \'real\' job while dealing with the shenanigans caused by the owners of my current residence, which has led me to start packing in order to move...lots of time and effort and calories spent.  Also, surprisingly enough, a great deal of writing.  Even in the midst of all the chaos, I\'ve managed to devote some time to my craft just about every day.  Some days have been more productive than others. but on most nights, the Muse has blessed me with new ideas, and taken my current WIP to places I never saw during its conception, which is always a pleasure for creatives such as myself, one of the few rewards an artist is given in today\'s world.\r\nI\'ve been working on two manuscripts simultaneously, one fiction and one a memoir detailing my experiences suffering from narcissistic and legal abuse.  I have been concentrating on the former for the last few months, as the latter is mostly transcription of a journal I kept for a decade during my disastrous slavery in the form of my second marriage.  This extra time was required, for this is the longest fiction work I\'ve ever attempted, and by far the strangest thing I have written to date (something I\'ve said many times during its creation, so apologies for repeating myself).  I think my Muse is aware of my upcoming move, and has been pushing me to finish the first draft before I am forced to pack and move my computer.  It will be close, as I am close to the finish line, with approximately twenty-five more pages or so to go on the first draft.  I doubt I will be able to finish this epic-length beast before I have to up and move, but I will give it my best shot.\r\nThe Muse will not be denied, it seems.\r\nThat\'s okay. I don\'t mind.\r\nA bit over two chapters left to go.\r\n\r\nUntil Next Time - \r\n\r\n~Namaste','Writing Update - Aug. 2022','','publish','open','open','','writing-update-aug-2022','','','2022-08-21 11:32:28','2022-08-21 15:32:28','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=554',0,'post','',0),(555,1,'2022-08-21 11:32:28','2022-08-21 15:32:28','Greetings.\r\n\r\nIt\'s been a hectic summer. New \'real\' job while dealing with the shenanigans caused by the owners of my current residence, which has led me to start packing in order to move...lots of time and effort and calories spent.  Also, surprisingly enough, a great deal of writing.  Even in the midst of all the chaos, I\'ve managed to devote some time to my craft just about every day.  Some days have been more productive than others. but on most nights, the Muse has blessed me with new ideas, and taken my current WIP to places I never saw during its conception, which is always a pleasure for creatives such as myself, one of the few rewards an artist is given in today\'s world.\r\nI\'ve been working on two manuscripts simultaneously, one fiction and one a memoir detailing my experiences suffering from narcissistic and legal abuse.  I have been concentrating on the former for the last few months, as the latter is mostly transcription of a journal I kept for a decade during my disastrous slavery in the form of my second marriage.  This extra time was required, for this is the longest fiction work I\'ve ever attempted, and by far the strangest thing I have written to date (something I\'ve said many times during its creation, so apologies for repeating myself).  I think my Muse is aware of my upcoming move, and has been pushing me to finish the first draft before I am forced to pack and move my computer.  It will be close, as I am close to the finish line, with approximately twenty-five more pages or so to go on the first draft.  I doubt I will be able to finish this epic-length beast before I have to up and move, but I will give it my best shot.\r\nThe Muse will not be denied, it seems.\r\nThat\'s okay. I don\'t mind.\r\nA bit over two chapters left to go.\r\n\r\nUntil Next Time - \r\n\r\n~Namaste','Writing Update - Aug. 2022','','inherit','closed','closed','','554-revision-v1','','','2022-08-21 11:32:28','2022-08-21 15:32:28','',554,'http://michaelvain.net/554-revision-v1/',0,'revision','',0),(570,1,'2022-10-05 23:37:16','2022-10-06 03:37:16','Greetings all,\r\n\r\nIt\'s been a hectic and exhausting few weeks.  I\'m not even sure at the moment when I posted last.  It\'s been some weeks, but the days have a way of blending together when things get intense, and they certainly have been ever since the new owners of my former apartment complex decided to act like complete asshats and not pay me for two months worth of labor.  This led to my ending my term as property manager, and having to find a new place and a new job simultaneously.  This was a stressful time, and though I managed to do both, this was but the start; I still had to pack up everything I owned into storage while working my new job, and also doing all the rehab work in my future living space in trade for the security deposit.  While difficult, this last was a win for me, as I do a better job painting than the normal job done on vacant units, as well as making sure everything was done my way.\r\nI had hoped to finish the first draft of my current novel of multi-dimensional existential horror before having to change my residence, but ran out of time just as I was set to write the next to last chapter, i.e. the climax of the story (the last chapter is just afterglow).  I then faced the task of packing the remaining 75% of my belongings and all my furniture in about 24 hours. Unfortunately, my new apartment was not ready yet, so I spent a few nights sleeping in vacant units until the flooring was ready.  The end result is I have been keeping a minimum of 16 hour days 7 days a week, and have a bit more to go.  As I write this, I am surrounded by a small mountain of boxes waiting to be unboxed, and a few last pieces of furniture to move from another unit I have been using for storage.  Although smaller by a slight bit, I think my new place has the potential to be a more creative living environment than my previous residence.  it will need to be, because I have lots more books to write.\r\nI have a bit more to do before my place is more of a home, but the finish line for both the apartment and my current WIP is close.\r\n\r\nTil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Writing Update - Oct. 5, 2022','','publish','open','open','','writing-update-oct-5-2022','','','2022-10-05 23:37:16','2022-10-06 03:37:16','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=570',0,'post','',0),(571,1,'2022-10-05 23:37:16','2022-10-06 03:37:16','Greetings all,\r\n\r\nIt\'s been a hectic and exhausting few weeks.  I\'m not even sure at the moment when I posted last.  It\'s been some weeks, but the days have a way of blending together when things get intense, and they certainly have been ever since the new owners of my former apartment complex decided to act like complete asshats and not pay me for two months worth of labor.  This led to my ending my term as property manager, and having to find a new place and a new job simultaneously.  This was a stressful time, and though I managed to do both, this was but the start; I still had to pack up everything I owned into storage while working my new job, and also doing all the rehab work in my future living space in trade for the security deposit.  While difficult, this last was a win for me, as I do a better job painting than the normal job done on vacant units, as well as making sure everything was done my way.\r\nI had hoped to finish the first draft of my current novel of multi-dimensional existential horror before having to change my residence, but ran out of time just as I was set to write the next to last chapter, i.e. the climax of the story (the last chapter is just afterglow).  I then faced the task of packing the remaining 75% of my belongings and all my furniture in about 24 hours. Unfortunately, my new apartment was not ready yet, so I spent a few nights sleeping in vacant units until the flooring was ready.  The end result is I have been keeping a minimum of 16 hour days 7 days a week, and have a bit more to go.  As I write this, I am surrounded by a small mountain of boxes waiting to be unboxed, and a few last pieces of furniture to move from another unit I have been using for storage.  Although smaller by a slight bit, I think my new place has the potential to be a more creative living environment than my previous residence.  it will need to be, because I have lots more books to write.\r\nI have a bit more to do before my place is more of a home, but the finish line for both the apartment and my current WIP is close.\r\n\r\nTil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Writing Update - Oct. 5, 2022','','inherit','closed','closed','','570-revision-v1','','','2022-10-05 23:37:16','2022-10-06 03:37:16','',570,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=571',0,'revision','',0),(576,1,'2022-11-13 22:06:17','0000-00-00 00:00:00','Greetings all,\n\nI finished the first draft of my current WIP on November 6, but could not post the news then as my internet is spotty in my new place, and could not hold a connection long enough to make the necessary updates.  Seemed to get lucky tonight, so I figured I would throw out a quick update.\nMy new novel came in at over sixty chapters, and the first draft weighed in at over 171k words.  I pretty much told the story I wanted to tell, the one the Muse gave me, and I do not think much will be cut in terms of word count.  If anything, the total my end up growing just a little bit.  I do not pay attention to word or page counts.  I do not cut whole chapters or characters unless I am driven to do so by the story itself.  Being an independent author, I also do my own editing, and thus take full responsibility for the content and quality of my work. ','Writing Update: 11-13-2022','','draft','open','open','','','','','2022-11-13 22:06:17','2022-11-14 02:06:17','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=576',0,'post','',0),(578,1,'2022-11-13 22:22:32','2022-11-14 02:22:32','Greetings all,\r\n\r\nI finished the first draft of my current WIP on November 6.  The manuscript weighed in at over 171k words, a bit over 625 pages, making it my longest work so far.  I do not expect the word count to reduce much in the course of editing; if anything, it may increase a bit.  I have pretty much told the story I wanted to tell, the one the Muse gave me, and I do not expect many changes in the context of the story itself. I am currently on the first pass through for editing, and barring any major setbacks, still hope to have my cover reveal in time to publish before the end of the year, so stay tuned!\r\n\r\nUntil Next Time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Writing Update: 11-13-2022','','publish','open','open','','writing-update-11-13-2022','','','2022-11-13 22:22:32','2022-11-14 02:22:32','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=578',0,'post','',0),(579,1,'2022-11-13 22:22:32','2022-11-14 02:22:32','Greetings all,\r\n\r\nI finished the first draft of my current WIP on November 6.  The manuscript weighed in at over 171k words, a bit over 625 pages, making it my longest work so far.  I do not expect the word count to reduce much in the course of editing; if anything, it may increase a bit.  I have pretty much told the story I wanted to tell, the one the Muse gave me, and I do not expect many changes in the context of the story itself. I am currently on the first pass through for editing, and barring any major setbacks, still hope to have my cover reveal in time to publish before the end of the year, so stay tuned!\r\n\r\nUntil Next Time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Writing Update: 11-13-2022','','inherit','closed','closed','','578-revision-v1','','','2022-11-13 22:22:32','2022-11-14 02:22:32','',578,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=579',0,'revision','',0),(585,1,'2023-01-26 01:43:52','2023-01-26 05:43:52','Well folks, it looks like my love affair with Wordpress has ended.\r\nI\'m tired of \'content encoding errors\' and other b.s. whenever WP decides to be a shit. I may or may not use it for blog posts, but I\'m leaning toward \'no\'.  Sure, I\'ll have to manually code and upload all my changes without the benefit of an online interface, but there is always just too many problems with this platform for me to invest any more energy into it.  \r\nI\'ll post more when I make my decision. ','Changes','','publish','open','open','','changes','','','2023-01-26 01:43:52','2023-01-26 05:43:52','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=585',0,'post','',0),(586,1,'2023-01-26 01:43:52','2023-01-26 05:43:52','Well folks, it looks like my love affair with Wordpress has ended.\r\nI\'m tired of \'content encoding errors\' and other b.s. whenever WP decides to be a shit. I may or may not use it for blog posts, but I\'m leaning toward \'no\'.  Sure, I\'ll have to manually code and upload all my changes without the benefit of an online interface, but there is always just too many problems with this platform for me to invest any more energy into it.  \r\nI\'ll post more when I make my decision. ','Changes','','inherit','closed','closed','','585-revision-v1','','','2023-01-26 01:43:52','2023-01-26 05:43:52','',585,'http://michaelvain.net/?p=586',0,'revision','',0),(589,1,'2023-03-06 00:25:27','2023-03-06 04:25:27','Greetings!\r\n\r\nSo much news! \r\nThe manuscript for my upcoming novel is completed. It will weigh in at 634 pages, and a bit over 169k words. Cover reveal coming soon!  I\'ll be announcing the publication date soon.\r\nI have solved my previous problems with Wordpress, apparently, so I\'ll be keeping this format for a while. I will be working more on the mobile version once the new book has been published.\r\nI am also working to start a Youtube channel, basically a video blog of this writer\'s life kind of thing.  More details will be given as this project progresses.\r\nAlso, after some positive feedback from a good friend, I will also be working on making audible versions of all my work.\r\nSo, a full plate, it seems.\r\nFor those few loyal readers, stay tuned...it\'s going to be a busy year.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste ','Writing Update: 3-5-2023','','publish','open','open','','writing-update-3-5-2023','','','2023-03-06 00:25:27','2023-03-06 04:25:27','',0,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=589',0,'post','',0),(590,1,'2023-03-06 00:25:27','2023-03-06 04:25:27','Greetings!\r\n\r\nSo much news! \r\nThe manuscript for my upcoming novel is completed. It will weigh in at 634 pages, and a bit over 169k words. Cover reveal coming soon!  I\'ll be announcing the publication date soon.\r\nI have solved my previous problems with Wordpress, apparently, so I\'ll be keeping this format for a while. I will be working more on the mobile version once the new book has been published.\r\nI am also working to start a Youtube channel, basically a video blog of this writer\'s life kind of thing.  More details will be given as this project progresses.\r\nAlso, after some positive feedback from a good friend, I will also be working on making audible versions of all my work.\r\nSo, a full plate, it seems.\r\nFor those few loyal readers, stay tuned...it\'s going to be a busy year.\r\n\r\nUntil next time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste ','Writing Update: 3-5-2023','','inherit','closed','closed','','589-revision-v1','','','2023-03-06 00:25:27','2023-03-06 04:25:27','',589,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=590',0,'revision','',0),(591,1,'2023-03-06 00:29:07','2023-03-06 04:29:07','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n	<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<h4>Coming Soon</h4>\n\n<h4><img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2022/05/flweroflifebw400a-e1653267154382.jpg\" alt=\"Flower of Life\" width=\"450\" height=\"450\" /></h4>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<h4>Cover Reveal Coming Soon!</h4>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n	<h2>Coming March/April 2023</h2>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<p>A new novel that combines elements of horror, the paranormal, and quantum physics.</p>\n<h2>Coming - Late 2023</h2>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<p>A non-fiction account of a male victim of domestic abuse, and a court system unequipped and uncaring as to the dangers of narcissistic abuse.  Available late 2023,</p>\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Future','','inherit','closed','closed','','224-revision-v1','','','2023-03-06 00:29:07','2023-03-06 04:29:07','',224,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=591',0,'revision','',0),(592,1,'2023-03-06 00:52:56','2023-03-06 04:52:56','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/about_mv01.jpg\" alt=\"Author Michael Vain standing at the gate to Poe&#039;s Tomb, Baltimore Md.\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"about_mv01\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n	<h3>Welcome</h3>\n<p>This is the official website for writer and artist Michael Vain, a rising new voice in the world of horror and suspense. Here you will find all the official information his writing and art, as well as purchase copies of his work.</p>\n<p>As you enter the site, be prepared to discover dark and dangerous dimensions, encounter strange and mysterious beings, and experience those things that go bump in the night, as you tour the strange and often terrifying imagination of an author who has personally experienced the paranormal.</p>\n<p>Here you will find a detailed biography of the author, links to his current works, news on his upcoming writing projects and appearances galleries of his various artworks, the author\'s blog and more. This site will continue to evolve through time, so check back with us often to learn the latest news.</p>\n	<h2>Latest News and Releases</h2>\n				<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/1530927099\" target=\"_self\" itemprop=\"url\" rel=\"noopener\">\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/icon_highway_new.png\" alt=\"icon_highway_new\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"icon_highway_new\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n				</a>\n			<a href=\"https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/620148\" target=\"_blank\" role=\"button\" rel=\"noopener\">\n						E-Book\n		</a>\n			<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/1530927099\" target=\"_self\" role=\"button\" rel=\"noopener\">\n						Paperback\n		</a>\n				<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0892B8BG4\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\" itemprop=\"url\">\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2020/05/cover_title02b_icon.jpg\" alt=\"Cover for Strange Stories, Twisted Tales by Michael Vain\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"cover_title02b_icon\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n				</a>\n			<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0892B8BG4\" target=\"_blank\" role=\"button\" rel=\"noopener\">\n						All Formats\n		</a>\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Home','','inherit','closed','closed','','5-revision-v1','','','2023-03-06 00:52:56','2023-03-06 04:52:56','',5,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=592',0,'revision','',0),(593,1,'2023-03-08 00:16:59','2023-03-08 04:16:59','Digital Art','cover_72_front','Permutations of Reality','inherit','open','closed','','cover_72_front','','','2023-03-08 00:33:36','2023-03-08 04:33:36','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/wp-content/uploads/2023/03/cover_72_front.jpg',0,'attachment','image/jpeg',0),(594,1,'2023-03-08 00:17:27','2023-03-08 04:17:27','','cover_icon','','inherit','open','closed','','cover_icont','','','2023-03-08 22:08:26','2023-03-09 02:08:26','',0,'http://michaelvain.net/wp-content/uploads/2023/03/cover_icont.jpg',0,'attachment','image/jpeg',0),(595,1,'2023-03-08 00:20:11','2023-03-08 04:20:11','','cover_72_01c_full','','inherit','open','closed','','cover_72_01c_full','','','2023-03-08 22:14:38','2023-03-09 02:14:38','',603,'http://michaelvain.net/wp-content/uploads/2023/03/cover_72_01c_full.jpg',0,'attachment','image/jpeg',0),(596,1,'2023-03-08 00:30:36','2023-03-08 04:30:36','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n	<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<h4>Coming Soon</h4>\n\n<h4><img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2023/03/cover_72_front.jpg\" alt=\"permutations of reality cover\"  /></h4>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n	<h2>Coming March/April 2023</h2>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<p>Permutations of Reality - A new novel that combines elements of horror, the paranormal, and quantum physics.</p>\n<h2>Coming - Late 2023</h2>\n<p>&nbsp;</p>\n<p>A non-fiction account of a male victim of domestic abuse, and a court system unequipped and uncaring as to the dangers of narcissistic abuse.  Available late 2023,</p>\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Future','','inherit','closed','closed','','224-revision-v1','','','2023-03-08 00:30:36','2023-03-08 04:30:36','',224,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=596',0,'revision','',0),(598,1,'2023-03-08 00:51:15','2023-03-08 04:51:15','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n	<h6>\n            List of all written works by the author.\n            </h6><br />\n<h5>Novellas and short stories</h5>            \n\nVain, Michael <i>\"The Minstrel\"</i> Smashwords (e-book edition) 2013 (novella)\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Groovin\' to the Zombie Apocalypse\"</i>, 2013 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"BOO!\"</i>, 2018 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Nobody\'s Hero\"</i>, 2018 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p> \n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Easy Prey\"</i>, 2019 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Lullaby\"</i>, 2018 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange STories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"The Last Story\"</i>, 2019 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange STories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, MIchael <i>\"Polymech\"</i>, 2002 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"The Message\"</i>, 2020 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Roadkill\"</i>, 2020 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"The Old Names\" (poem)</i>, 2009 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i> 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"I Will\" (poem)</i>, 2009 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i> 2020)</p>\n<h5>Novels</h5>\n  \n      Vain, Michael <i>\"Highway Hypnosis\"</i>  2016 \n      <p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Permutations of Reality\"</i>  2023</p>\n<h5>Collections</h5>\n   \n       Vain, Michael <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i> 2020\n   \n<h5>Other Works</h5> \n    \n      Vain, Michael <i>\"A Comparison of the Inherant Stress-Causing Factors between the Polygraph and Psychological Stress Evaluator\"</i> Springfield, Va. Dektor Counterintelligence and Security, (technical paper)\n   \n   \n      Vain, Michael <i>\"Reflections of the Virtues of the Warrior as Taught in Shorin-Ryu Karate-Do\"</i> Hampton, Va., North American Shorin Ryu Karate Association (1st Dan Thesis)\n                \n                <br />                \n                <br />\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Bibliography','','inherit','closed','closed','','159-revision-v1','','','2023-03-08 00:51:15','2023-03-08 04:51:15','',159,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=598',0,'revision','',0),(600,1,'2023-03-08 22:00:34','2023-03-09 02:00:34','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/art_covers_hwy-200x300.jpg\" alt=\"Highway Hypnosis cover\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"art_covers_hwy\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n	<h5>Highway Hypnosis</h5>\n                       <h6>Dark Suspense/Horror, 409 pages<br />\n                                              </h6>\n                                              <p>Howard Langford is intelligent, driven, and at times even ruthless, but he is not a hero. When he falls asleep behind the wheel during a long drive, he awakens to find himself on a road he does not recognize, and is then forced to embark upon a terrifying journey through a dangerous dimension, a journey that will require acts of personal sacrifice and endurance he never previously believed possible. Fighting for both his sanity and his life, Howard must find the hero within himself as he struggles to discover a way back to his own world before the denizens of this nightmare realm can claim him for their own.</p>\n			<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/1530927099\" target=\"_blank\" role=\"button\" rel=\"noopener\">\n						Paperback\n		</a>\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2023/03/cover_72_front-200x300.jpg\" alt=\"Permutations of Reality cover\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"cover_72_front\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n	<h5>Permutations of <br />Reality</h5>\n                       <h6>Supernatural Suspense/Horror, 634 pages<br />\n                                              </h6>\n                                              Jeremy Engles lives a quiet if unassuming life, and he likes  it that way. A kind and empathic soul, Jeremy prefers routine  over adventure. With a house in a nice suburb, a good career,\nand a girlfriend he plans to marry, he is close to achieving his \nversion of the American Dream.  Within the space of minutes, however, everything in his life  changes when Jeremy experiences a bizarre visionary event  in which he suffers a painful and gruesome death, realistic in  every detail, only to find himself whole again moments later,  as if it had never happened. Further visions lead him to seek\ntreatment, and when attempts at conventional diagnosis fail, \nJeremy embarks on a quest to discover the truth behind these \nstrange events, a search which will take him on a dimension-\nhopping journey across multiple realities, one complicated by \nmachinations of those who are not as they appear. As both the \nvisions and their effects upon his psyche escalate, Jeremy \nstruggles to find the answers before his sanity, his freedom, \nand everything he holds dear is lost forever.    Will he find the strength to face the profound truth behind his  visions, or will he become forever lost within the infinite \npermutations of reality?\n\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Novels','','inherit','closed','closed','','161-revision-v1','','','2023-03-08 22:00:34','2023-03-09 02:00:34','',161,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=600',0,'revision','',0),(601,1,'2023-03-08 22:02:45','2023-03-09 02:02:45','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2020/05/cover_title02b_rgb.jpg\" alt=\"Cover for Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"Roadkill\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n	<h4>Strange Stories, Twisted Tales</h4>\n<h6>Horror/Fantasy/Science Fiction, 439 pages\n</h6>\nSome stories are a bit strange, some are perhaps even a little twisted.  These are the stories that take us on sometimes dark and dangerous adventures, to places many would fear to tread.  Collected among the pages of this volume are ten such journeys, including:\nAn otherworldly musician who teaches two would-be thieves the true power of music...\nA woman pursued by a terrifying unseen predator along a country road...\nA teenage slacker who discovers his true calling after a zombie apocalypse...\nA vampire connoisseur who preys on fans of a popular paranormal romance series...\nA paranormal investigation that goes horribly wrong when it encounters a centuries-old curse...and more.\nSo come, dear reader, come and explore some of the darker corners of imagination with these strange stories and twisted tales. \nYou might even like it. \n\n			<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0892B8BG4\" target=\"_blank\" role=\"button\" rel=\"noopener\">\n						Purchase\n		</a>\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Collections','','inherit','closed','closed','','163-revision-v1','','','2023-03-08 22:02:45','2023-03-09 02:02:45','',163,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=601',0,'revision','',0),(602,1,'2023-03-08 22:10:16','2023-03-09 02:10:16','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/about_mv01.jpg\" alt=\"Author Michael Vain standing at the gate to Poe&#039;s Tomb, Baltimore Md.\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"about_mv01\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n	<h3>Welcome</h3>\n<p>This is the official website for writer and artist Michael Vain, a rising new voice in the world of horror and suspense. Here you will find all the official information his writing and art, as well as purchase copies of his work.</p>\n<p>As you enter the site, be prepared to discover dark and dangerous dimensions, encounter strange and mysterious beings, and experience those things that go bump in the night, as you tour the strange and often terrifying imagination of an author who has personally experienced the paranormal.</p>\n<p>Here you will find a detailed biography of the author, links to his current works, news on his upcoming writing projects and appearances galleries of his various artworks, the author\'s blog and more. This site will continue to evolve through time, so check back with us often to learn the latest news.</p>\n	<h2>Latest News and Releases</h2>\n				<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/1530927099\" target=\"_self\" itemprop=\"url\" rel=\"noopener\">\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/icon_highway_new.png\" alt=\"icon_highway_new\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"icon_highway_new\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n				</a>\n			<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/1530927099\" target=\"_self\" role=\"button\" rel=\"noopener\">\n						Paperback\n		</a>\n				<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0892B8BG4\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\" itemprop=\"url\">\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2020/05/cover_title02b_icon.jpg\" alt=\"Cover for Strange Stories, Twisted Tales by Michael Vain\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"cover_title02b_icon\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n				</a>\n			<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0892B8BG4\" target=\"_blank\" role=\"button\" rel=\"noopener\">\n						All Formats\n		</a>\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2023/03/cover_icont.jpg\" alt=\"Permutations of Reality cover icon\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"cover_icon\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Home','','inherit','closed','closed','','5-revision-v1','','','2023-03-08 22:10:16','2023-03-09 02:10:16','',5,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=602',0,'revision','',0),(603,1,'2023-03-08 22:15:46','2023-03-09 02:15:46','Here is the cover of my newest novel. I\'ve been waiting for some time for this.\r\n\r\n<img class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-595\" src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2023/03/cover_72_01c_full.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"985\" height=\"666\" />','Cover Reveal','','publish','open','open','','cover-reveal','','','2023-03-08 22:15:46','2023-03-09 02:15:46','',0,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=603',0,'post','',0),(604,1,'2023-03-08 22:15:46','2023-03-09 02:15:46','Here is the cover of my newest novel. I\'ve been waiting for some time for this.\r\n\r\n<img class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-595\" src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2023/03/cover_72_01c_full.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"985\" height=\"666\" />','Cover Reveal','','inherit','closed','closed','','603-revision-v1','','','2023-03-08 22:15:46','2023-03-09 02:15:46','',603,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=604',0,'revision','',0),(605,1,'2023-03-12 03:53:54','2023-03-12 07:53:54','Greetings!\r\n\r\nEven though I have completed the new novel, it does not mean I get to take any time off; there are still a good number of tasks requiring my attention, projects left undone or to further my visibility in the marketplace.  I have recently revised the formatting for my first novel, Highway Hypnosis, in preparation for an e-book release, and this should be available soon.  I will also be releasing hardcover versions of all my work in the future, so be sure to stay tuned for news and release dates.\r\n\r\nUntil Next Time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Writing Update: 3-12-2023','','publish','open','open','','writing-update-3-12-2023','','','2023-03-12 03:53:54','2023-03-12 07:53:54','',0,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=605',0,'post','',0),(606,1,'2023-03-12 03:53:54','2023-03-12 07:53:54','Greetings!\r\n\r\nEven though I have completed the new novel, it does not mean I get to take any time off; there are still a good number of tasks requiring my attention, projects left undone or to further my visibility in the marketplace.  I have recently revised the formatting for my first novel, Highway Hypnosis, in preparation for an e-book release, and this should be available soon.  I will also be releasing hardcover versions of all my work in the future, so be sure to stay tuned for news and release dates.\r\n\r\nUntil Next Time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','Writing Update: 3-12-2023','','inherit','closed','closed','','605-revision-v1','','','2023-03-12 03:53:54','2023-03-12 07:53:54','',605,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=606',0,'revision','',0),(607,1,'2023-03-12 04:03:48','2023-03-12 08:03:48','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/about_mv01.jpg\" alt=\"Author Michael Vain standing at the gate to Poe&#039;s Tomb, Baltimore Md.\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"about_mv01\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n	<h3>Welcome</h3>\n<p>This is the official website for writer and artist Michael Vain, a rising new voice in the world of horror and suspense. Here you will find all the official information his writing and art, as well as purchase copies of his work.</p>\n<p>As you enter the site, be prepared to discover dark and dangerous dimensions, encounter strange and mysterious beings, and experience those things that go bump in the night, as you tour the strange and often terrifying imagination of an author who has personally experienced the paranormal.</p>\n<p>Here you will find a detailed biography of the author, links to his current works, news on his upcoming writing projects and appearances galleries of his various artworks, the author\'s blog and more. This site will continue to evolve through time, so check back with us often to learn the latest news.</p>\n	<h2>Latest News and Releases</h2>\n				<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/1530927099\" target=\"_self\" itemprop=\"url\" rel=\"noopener\">\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/icon_highway_new.png\" alt=\"icon_highway_new\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"icon_highway_new\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n				</a>\n			<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/1530927099\" target=\"_self\" role=\"button\" rel=\"noopener\">\n						Purchase\n		</a>\n				<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0892B8BG4\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\" itemprop=\"url\">\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2020/05/cover_title02b_icon.jpg\" alt=\"Cover for Strange Stories, Twisted Tales by Michael Vain\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"cover_title02b_icon\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n				</a>\n			<a 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converted my first two books into hardback for publication on Amazon, added the e-book version of Highway Hypnosis to Kindle Unlimited, and edited the covers of all three of my books for hardback formatting.  I think these are all good things, and I hope it is an indication of progress toward my writing career becoming my only career.  This hope has taken a more desperate turn over the last year, I must admit.  I close out another decade this Sunday, and know I cannot keep up the pace of such a physical day job forever.  I hate to admit I\'m feeling my age, but as Indiana Jones once said, \'it\'s not the years, it\'s the mileage\'.  And I\'m feeling those miles, boys and girls.\r\n\r\nTo this end, I have been stepping up my game, not only in devoting more time toward writing, but also in terms of promotion.  I wrote in an earlier post that I plan on creating Audible versions of my first three books, as well as creating a YouTube channel centered on writing and the life of an aspiring 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also had the good fortune to have enough some extra cash on the payday before my coming birthday, so I treated myself to a present in the form of a decent usb microphone, one I plan to use a good deal in the future.  Things seem to be falling into place, so it seemed a wise purchase, and I have a more positive outlook for the future for the first time in longer than I can remember.\r\n\r\nSo stay tuned!  Lots of things are coming!\r\n\r\nUntil Next Time,\r\n\r\n~Namaste','End of a Decade','','inherit','closed','closed','','614-revision-v1','','','2023-03-31 00:07:02','2023-03-31 04:07:02','',614,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=615',0,'revision','',0),(616,1,'2023-04-03 22:54:06','2023-04-04 02:54:06','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2018/05/art_covers_hwy-200x300.jpg\" alt=\"Highway Hypnosis cover\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"art_covers_hwy\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n	<h5>Highway Hypnosis</h5>\n    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When he falls asleep behind the wheel during a long drive, he awakens to find himself on a road he does not recognize, and is then forced to embark upon a terrifying journey through a dangerous dimension, a journey that will require acts of personal sacrifice and endurance he never previously believed possible. Fighting for both his sanity and his life, Howard must find the hero within himself as he struggles to discover a way back to his own world before the denizens of this nightmare realm can claim him for their own.</p>\n			<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/1530927099\" target=\"_blank\" role=\"button\" rel=\"noopener\">\n						Purchase\n		</a>\n				<img src=\"https://michaelvain.net/.wp-toolkit_0/wp-content/uploads/2023/03/cover_72_front-200x300.jpg\" alt=\"Permutations of Reality cover\" itemprop=\"image\" title=\"cover_72_front\" onerror=\"this.style.display=\'none\'\"  />\n	<h5>Permutations of <br />Reality</h5>\n                       <h6>Supernatural Suspense/Horror, 634 pages<br />\n                                              </h6>\n                                              Jeremy Engles lives a quiet if unassuming life, and he likes  it that way. A kind and empathic soul, Jeremy prefers routine  over adventure. With a house in a nice suburb, a good career,\nand a girlfriend he plans to marry, he is close to achieving his \nversion of the American Dream.  Within the space of minutes, however, everything in his life  changes when Jeremy experiences a bizarre visionary event  in which he suffers a painful and gruesome death, realistic in  every detail, only to find himself whole again moments later,  as if it had never happened. Further visions lead him to seek\ntreatment, and when attempts at conventional diagnosis fail, \nJeremy embarks on a quest to discover the truth behind these \nstrange events, a search which will take him on a dimension-\nhopping journey across multiple realities, one complicated by \nmachinations of those who are not as they appear. As both the \nvisions and their effects upon his psyche escalate, Jeremy \nstruggles to find the answers before his sanity, his freedom, \nand everything he holds dear is lost forever.    Will he find the strength to face the profound truth behind his  visions, or will he become forever lost within the infinite \npermutations of reality?\n\n			<a href=\"https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0BXMWVNTV\" target=\"_blank\" role=\"button\" rel=\"noopener\">\n						Purchase\n		</a>\n\n<!-- /wp:fl-builder/layout -->','Novels','','inherit','closed','closed','','161-revision-v1','','','2023-04-03 22:54:06','2023-04-04 02:54:06','',161,'https://michaelvain.net/?p=616',0,'revision','',0),(617,1,'2023-04-03 22:57:30','2023-04-04 02:57:30','<!-- wp:fl-builder/layout -->\n\n	<h6>\n            List of all written works by the author.\n            </h6><br />\n<h5>Novellas and short stories</h5>            \n\nVain, Michael <i>\"The Minstrel\",</i> 2013 \n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Groovin\' to the Zombie Apocalypse\"</i>, 2013 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"BOO!\"</i>, 2018 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Nobody\'s Hero\"</i>, 2018 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p> \n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Easy Prey\"</i>, 2019 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Lullaby\"</i>, 2018 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange STories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"The Last Story\"</i>, 2019 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange STories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, MIchael <i>\"Polymech\"</i>, 2002 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"The Message\"</i>, 2020 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Roadkill\"</i>, 2020 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i>, 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"The Old Names\" (poem)</i>, 2009 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i> 2020)</p>\n<p>Vain, Michael <i>\"I Will\" (poem)</i>, 2009 (First appearing in <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i> 2020)</p>\n<h5>Novels</h5>\n  \n      Vain, Michael <i>\"Highway Hypnosis\"</i>  2016 \n      <p>Vain, Michael <i>\"Permutations of Reality\"</i>  2023</p>\n<h5>Collections</h5>\n   \n       Vain, Michael <i>\"Strange Stories, Twisted Tales\"</i> 2020\n   \n<h5>Other Works</h5> \n    \n      Vain, Michael <i>\"A Comparison of the Inherant Stress-Causing Factors between the Polygraph and Psychological Stress Evaluator\"</i> Springfield, Va. 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