My Dearest Michelle,
I was looking over my status entries on DA, and I wanted you to know that none of them are angry.  I post them at different times, driven by varying emotions...some are wistful, when I am reminiscing about all the good times I had with you (and they were many), and some are written in tears, as I am overwhelmed with grief and sadness and longing.
But not anger.  Despite what you have said, and perhaps led others to accept, is that I am often angry.  This is simply not true.  I've been incredibly frustrated, as anyone would be, and sometimes I was hurt, but  rarely angry.  The thing that hurts me the most is the comments about having nightmares and seeing me as some sort of monster, when I've been the one to consistently show just how much I love you.  Yes, I might blow off some frustration, from pain, from stress, or other sources with words, but they were always just venting...it's what I do that shows how I really feel.  Some were big things, like driving back and forth to Ohio just to see you, to little things. like making you breakfast or running out to Wal-Mart late at night because you wanted to put Christmas lights up in Savannah's room.  Everything I did, every day, had you and Savannah as my number one priority.  If I was sad, or appeared frustrated, it was because you often treated me like I didn't matter at all, or that I was somehow mistreating you.
Maybe I wasn't giving you what you wanted in life. Maybe it wasn't the smartest thing to try and afford that size house right away.  Maybe you wanted to be a little more experimental in some things.  None of those things would have been a deal breaker for me.  The only thing I couldn't change was my age, and that never bothered you before.  I put on some weight so I wouldn't look so thin, and will look good for another twenty years before I really start to look old.  All kinds of things could happen between now and then, so you can understand why I've been confused and frustrated.  Of course I'd be upset that you were chatting with a guy, who you admit to discussing whether or not you would be good together in a relationship, and telling them details of private matters, while also distorting the truth.  "I hate the way he treats you'  ??  Honestly, what the hell...I did my best to do everything I could for you, and you were talking about me like I was some punk.
That really hurts.  I never bad mouthed you, didn't tell everyone our business.  I just tried my best to show you that  you were everything to me.  I was, and am, willing to address anything you thought was impeding your idea of happiness.  Happiness comes from within, and I can be perfectly happy just spending time with my wife and daughter, the two most important people in my world.  I don't know the real reason you have chosen the path you are on, but I feel very strongly that what I was told were excuses, not reasons.  I have many reasons to honor my vows to you..not the least of which is how much I have always loved you.  For me, every smile you gave me was like the first.  Every little thing you said and did when the least bit happy gave me a little thrill, and made my heart skip a beat.  Coming home to Savannah grabbing my finger made everything I went through that day worth it.  I can't even describe how loved that made me feel.  And you leave me saying that I am somehow a danger to you or her?  That is something I can't even imagine doing to another person.  Again, it's what I have always done, not said, that shows how I really feel and am.  I liked spending my time with you and Savannah.  It didn't matter if we were taking a trip, or just staying home watching videos, I savored every moment being with you, and it was obvious.  I have always been affectionate to you, been gentle, and forgiven you no matter how much pain it cost me.
I had to write this, because I think deep inside you know these things to be true.  I refuse to believe that the woman who pursued me the way you did, that has shared all the moments we have shared together, could hate me that much.  No one I know would understand why I have continued to try to keep our relationship together.  I believe the average person would say 'what the fuck, man'.  Still, they don't see us, the way I see us, the way I see you.  Real love is a rare commodity these days, and despite whatever fears you may have, or problems you may think we have, I do not believe that they are worth throwing away what could be a very good future for us.  I'd ask that you not discard what might be the best romance you would have in your life, what could be the happiest, most balanced childhood Savannah could have, over something that could be fixed.  I would be willing to talk, if you are.  I would be willing to forgive, if you would accept it.  I know you know, deep inside, that I would never hurt you.  Things may get said in frustration, but I've never abused you physically or even emotionally..I've only been honest in my emotions in having been abused myself:  frustration, despair, heartbreak, shock...but never been the monster you seem to want me to be.
All I have ever wanted, is to have a simple life with my family, to enjoy every moment the best we could.  I should never have had to worry about whether my wife was being faithful to me.  I can put aside that pain if you could just accept the amount of pain it caused me.  You once said I had to accept responsibility, and now I am asking the same thing, not as blame, but to show one way things can be put to rest and we could move forward.  I think we can accomplish more together than you could with someone who only say they love you, without any of the compromise and hardship that can come with it.  You have seen how far I am willing to go to make you happy.  I've proven it often during our time.  If you can put aside this, this misplaced anger or disappointment or whatever it is, and see me for who I really am, you may find that I was right all along, and that we are in each other's lives because each of us is the best equipped to help the other, and by doing so, become happy and be rewarded in life.  What we said to each other when we met, about it being better to have twenty good years is still true.  Everything I ever expressed about loving you is still true.   I am hurt, and I am incredibly saddened that you would go through this again, but it doesn't change the fact that I love my wife, the one who loved me, and that I would do anything to provide a happy home for Savannah.  
I hope you read this, and that you understand I am just writing how I feel.
Now and forever,
Your Michael